Accepted!!!!

Hi everyone! Major news!!!

I have been accepted for the Disney College Program for the Spring! WOOOO! AHHHH!
I will be working Merchandise in Florida and I couldn't be more excited!

Another thing that is exciting is that my twin got accepted as well! We are both going and we will be arriving January 23rd and coming back May 18th! Dreams do come true!

I am creating a Disney blog so I will be posting more there! WOO!

Sorry for the short post! I will update more later!


XOXO,
Gossip Girl,
AKA... M'lyn

The DCP Waiting Game

Hello everyone!
Its been a while since I have updated this blog. Not too much has been happening besides the usual school, work, and dance! As you saw in my last blog post, I had applied to the Disney College Program. What's my status? Well I am currently In Progress. Woo its a sigh of relief but also a panic feeling because small acceptances have just went out this last Thursday. There are said to be "waves" that happen where a large number of people all will get accepted but that hasn't happened yet. I am just stressing and doubting myself but also trying to keep the faith! Basically the waiting game for the DCP is a struggle and I experience every emotion that is possible in the span of a couple weeks. I am at the point where I just want to know. even if I don't get in, at least I know and I don't have to wonder about it.


I joined the Facebook pages and so that helps to see all of the posts of other potential DCPers that are wanting to be there just as much as me. My favorite posts are when they post something and then caption it with "its a sign" because at this point everything is a sign.


Well I am at work and I am not prepared to write a long post so this is what it is! Thanks for reading and if you are applying to the DCP, don't give up! You got this!


That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl


AKA... M'lyn

Disney College Program!!

Hello everyone!
So applications for the Spring 2017 Disney College Program have dropped today!! (August 25th).

Here is the story:
I woke up for work and decided to put on my Mickey Mouse shirt with some jeans and my newest Disney shoes. This was the first time that I had worn them so I felt like it played at least a little part to the day. I headed to work around 7:30 and when I got into work I logged into the computer and got all of my sites set to where they need to be. I decided to check out the Disney College Program website (as I have been doing since the 1st of August) and I noticed that it was no longer saying "Opt in for notice". I literally screamed... well silently screamed because I was indeed at work. I thought that it would be around August 25th but it came so much earlier!

My first thought was to start the application right then and there but I decided that the way for me to be successful would be by waiting until I left work at 12:30. Oh my goodness... I don't think the day could have been slower than how it was today. I had so many times that I wanted to just dive right into the application but I couldn't. My twin has also wanted to be able to apply so I went and messaged her about it and she was super excited as well. We decided that since I get home first that I would apply first and that way if she needed help I would be able to help her.

The time came for me to head home and I would just like to note that I drove very safe all of the 30 minutes that it took me. I did not rush! haha! I got home and right away went to my computer and started the application. It wasn't too hard but it took me awhile because I wanted to get everything perfect! I was at the point of submitting it and it said "Before closing the window, please push sign out". I looked everywhere on the page and there was no place saying sign out so I decided to push the close button... Well advice for others.... DO NOT DO THIS! haha! It asked me if I was sure that I wanted to exit and I said yes. Well then I noticed that the sign out button was on the page for Disney Careers. So I decided to sign out and then log in again and check if there was an application on my dashboard. Well when I went to log in, it kept telling me that the username and password was wrong. After many attempts and me trying to retrieve my username. It would not work.

I made the executive decision to go back in and start all over. I had heard from reading a bunch of blogs and it was stated that they did not want you to apply with multiple applications. I had not received any kind of email stating that they had received my application and so I figured that it had been compromised. SO I went through it all over again and got it submitted the right way! WOO! I got an email and thats how I knew that it had actually worked this time.

About 20 minutes later, I received my Web Based Interview email and I had to decide when I wanted to take it within 3 days of receiving the email. My sister came home and we started her application around 3:00. She took a while for her application and she finished around 4:00. I had to leave for my dance job at 4:50 so I decided I was going to go ahead and start my Web Based Interview. *If you freak out under pressure and don't like having a short amount of time then I would definitely advise you to not give you the amount of time that I gave myself.*
What is the result???? I PASSED!!! WOOO! It told me that I would need to schedule a phone interview and that an email would be coming in about 24 hours. 15 minutes later I got my email and went straight on the site and scheduled it for August 22 at 2:45! NEXT MONDAY! So I have a little bit of time until I have to do the interview so I can plan and get all prepared!

Megan got a Web Based Interview as well and she took it and passed as well! She scheduled her phone interview for August 23! Its pretty crazy that we both got to this point. I hope that we both get in because that would be beautiful! I will update you more later!

Get ready to read a boring blog post.

Hello! Its M’lyn, back at it again with the blog posts.
That only works with Daniel huh!?
Right now I am at work… bored as eva.. I am waiting for the mail because every day we get mail and then I open it and distribute it to the rest of the office. Wow. I am already boring you all. Is it too late now to say sorry? CAUSE IM MISSING MORE THAN JUST YOUR BODY DUH DUH DA DA DA DUH……. Sorry when the biebs songs start going I just can’t control myself. #BieberIsBae


School is right around the corner! I start on the 22nd and if you were one of the lucky few, you have already been running for a week. Yeah. I don’t miss that part of high school. But I do miss having my Fridays off!

I have not fully decided with this blog post is going to be about, I just need to have something to do so I don’t look like I am sitting here doing nothing.


College is a funny thing. Everyone comes in with different expectations on how it will be. If you are like me, you had a sibling in college before you went so it gave you a little view of what it would be like. The thing is, everyone’s experience is different the person next to you. I came into college knowing what my sisters time here was like, but I was so scared. High school was a war zone. People wanted to be the cool ones and the fashionable ones… which is funny because at my school we had to wear the worst uniform ever. KAKIS GROSS….. Everyone floated around and they tried to be original and unique, but there was no room or time for that. High school is just the place where you find really great friends and have many many MANY awkward moments. You go to school dances and pound your fist in the air to the DJ’s remix that gives you a challenge to be able to dance to. You go on field trips and cherish every moment because at my school we had them barely ever. You count the days until thanksgiving break, Christmas break, spring break and summer break comes because those are the real MVP’s. You have drama because what is high school with no drama. And this drama is not even drama that is worth fighting but yet it seems like its life or death in the moment. You catch the dreaded senioritis and try to get through and pass school in one piece.. yeah that was a hard one for me.. haha! You have to make life situations like which college do you want to go into debt for. And you have to learn what it feels like to say goodbye and not know when you will see that person again. (Hint: It sucks). But in the end, you get to really start living and go after what you want. And the first step to that is COLLEGE.


Okay I don’t really know what I am writing about right now. It started out very clear and I was like woo yeah! So exciting! But now it is like I am trying to be inspirational and I don’t know how to be. Its only 9:20 and the mail came and it took me literally 5 minutes to open and go through. You may be thinking, so that’s the standard time. Not for the graduate school where we have hundreds of people attending and new people applying and sending in transcripts. We usually get a lot of mail and then I have to go scan it which helps to eat up a lot of my time at work, but today is going to be a slow and boring one.




I have been researching almost every day about the Disney College Program, which is only because I have nothing to do at work. They say not to overload yourself with information about it but I can’t help it! I have nothing else to do! I think the applications will come out around August 25th. I am super excited but I also am not looking forward to the wait and I just wish I knew if I was in or not. I am such a planning type of person and I like to just know what is going to happen at all times!

Well its 11:07 and I have a little more than an hour to go. I have almost fallen asleep about 5 times but work is almost over for the day! I don't think it has ever been this slow of a work day where I had absolutely nothing to do!

That's all for now!
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl


AKA M'lyn

What Life Has Taught Me

Hi there everyone!

So here I am, Sunday night, watching Bates Motel on Netflix and I get the sudden urge to blog about my life. Its definitely weird seeing as Bates Motel is about a mentally psychotic boy named Norman Bates that just so happens to black out sometimes and kill people... you know... the usual. Also, side note... I am on season 3 right now and that is the last one available on Netflix and I am just wondering how I am going to survive the wait for season 4??? Dylemma alone makes me want to see it as soon as possible... (Watch the show to get that reference, or you know look it up on youtube haha!) If you want me to make another blog post about my love for Bates Motel I definitely will because I have so much to say and feel.

ANYWAYS.. M'lyn stay on topic gosh....
Sorry. So! It is August right now and I have already begun some new changes in my life.
1) I am now officially a dance teacher. AHHH! The dream is becoming real! I have just 1 student as of last week and she is quite possibly the cutest little girl I have ever seen. She inspires me already and I just love her!!!

2) I am now working 2 jobs! AHH STRESS! haha! JK its not that bad. I work at UNC still at the graduate school for half the day until 12:30 and then I go later in the day and work as the receptionist for the studio! Its completely new for me but its fun! I clean a lot which surprisingly I love! haha! (Don't tell my parents I said that...)

3) I have to put my big girl pants on. What does this mean exactly? Well, soon I will be applying for the Disney College Program and if I get accepted I will be leaving my house and college and go to Florida or California for 4-7 months. Yeah. I am a little stressed. With that I have also been dancing with some of my best friends and we have a big project coming up that I super duper want to be a part of in the spring. Yes I just said super duper... #TrendSetterOverHere. The only problem with all this is that I can only do one or the other (So Far). Things always change but I am definitely worried that I will only be able to one of them and have to let go of the other. Basically I have been praying a lot and just letting God take over for this one because it will make me go mad if I don't.

4) Like the #3 states, I have a new project that I am involved in. Its obviously about dance and I have been choreographing with my dear friend and we have made one of my all time favorite dances. It feels so good to be able to feed off of someone else's creativity and just bounce ideas to get the best result. We have been slaying it (as the cool kids say). Gosh I felt old just saying that and I am only 20.

So with all these changes and new things that are happening, I have been taking a step back and remembering the lessons and obstacles that I have faced in my life.

Life lesson #1: Things can change in a blink of an eye

So I bet you think you know where your life is going to be in 10 years. First of all you go Glen Coco because thats pretty impressive. Okay so I don't know what you have gone through but for me, just when I think I know where my life is going to go it completely changes. When I was younger I said I was going to be a professional golf cart driver and that has definitely changed. I always think I know where I want to go with my life or what path it is on, but only God knows and I have found that I am completely okay with that. You may have friends that seem like they are the best friends ever but that can completely change and you may lose them.... Now I still have my best friends from high school and so fortunately for me it hasn't been a problem! Love you girlies!
But really. Change will happen and the best thing to do is invite it.

Life Lesson #2: Be prepared to feel like you have completely lost yourself as some point.

This sounds so depressing but it is not. Sure not everyone goes through this but I certainly have. I think whenever you enter college as a freshman, you are on the joy ride of having to figure out what you want and who you are. I am a junior in college now and I am barely finished figuring out who I am. I didn't realize at the time but when I was in high school, I was someone that I didn't want to be. I worried so much about being seen as cool and being invited to literally everything that I let other important things slip through my fingers. Now in college, I look back and just cringe at that person. Its not important to be invited to everything. Its not important to be cool. I mean yes, we all want to be like Glen Coco and get 4 candy canes but sometimes that doesn't happen. #KillingItWithTheMeanGirlsReferences.
I wish I would have seen how deep I was when I lost myself but it worked out in the long run because I was able to find myself through it and find what I didn't want to be like anymore.

Life Lesson #3: Learn to put yourself sometimes before others

I am someone that loves people. I want to makes sure that I help others in any way that I can and with that I have let a lot of people walk over me. I have said yes to things that I didn't want to do and I have just done what everyone thought I should do. But I have changed tremendously with this. I learned to think about what is best for me and what my limitations are. Not everyone means to hurt you but sometimes it happens. Sometimes you have to make changes that make the people you had as friends fall behind instead of stick with you, but it all works out in the end. Sacrifices are needed even though it feels so bad at the time.

Life Lesson #4: Adventure is out there.

This is something that everyone realizes as some point. For me, it is that there is so much more outside of Greeley. Now obviously I knew that but I didn't realize how much there really was. How much I could be a part of. How big the world is for me to dream. When I went to my first Disney audition, I may not of walked away with a part, but I walked away with the greatest feeling ever. I got to feel what it felt like to actually go after what I wanted. I got to be adventurous.

Okay. I think I am done for now. There are a lot more life lessons that I could talk about but these are the ones that my fingers decided to type. Let me know some of your life lessons and how you feel about them!

GUYS! I am on the 3rd to last episode now of Bates Motel.. Send help! I might just crawl into a ball and cry because I don't know what to do... Its like when I watched all of Greys Anatomy. 12 seasons baby and it is basically my best friend.

Wow. I need to get out more.

Thats all for now!
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka.... M'lyn

To Dream Without Boundaries

So as you read from my updates post, I am deeply into Dawson’s Creek. I am currently on season 4 of it and there are only 2 left and I don’t even want to think about how I am going to feel when it’s over. I watch a lot of TV shows on Netflix where I binge it and finish the whole series and then I just move to the next one, but I have a feeling that this one has left too much of an impact for me to get over it that easily.

If you have never seen Dawson’s Creek, here is a little synopsis for you.
Dawson Leery is a boy that is obsessed with filmmaking. He lives in Capeside and is an only child. He has a best friend named Joey, who is actually a girl that lives across the creek. Right from the beginning, you can tell these two have a special bond with one another. There is a character named Pacey (My favorite) that is Dawson’s best friend but not so much Joey’s friend. Jen is another character that is there from the beginning and Dawson likes her right when she steps foot on Capeside soil.

Joey is in love with Dawson. She has been since she was little and she knows that it’s something that she will be keeping to herself for quite some time. Dawson is pretty delirious about the whole thing but I mean that’s pretty typical. Overtime, they start to recognize and really face these feelings that they have towards one another and get to the point where they may or may not end up together.

Now I know what you are thinking, that this show is just another teen romance show. Yes, there is romance throughout every episode of some kind, but there’s so much more than that. There’s life lessons at every corner and quotes that you just want to write down and put on your wall. These teens are not your average teens and they really help show that the bond between groups of friends can help you get through anything.

My description does not do it justice so I highly recommend you just watch it.

So getting to my point of this post…. In one of the episodes, Dawson describes his take on dreams and how he views it. He says you have to dream without boundaries. Right when he said that, I wrote it down. I feel like a lot of people in today’s world want to dream big and have dreams that many see as invaluable. I know for me, I want to go work at Disney and work my way up to being a impacting part of the company. While I see that dream as obviously totally obtainable, there are others that would disagree with me.

We all have a passion and something that we want to strive for, but sometimes we believe that there are only certain paths that we are allowed to take. We can become a doctor or a dentist, we can go to a business and be a marketing person, and we can become a teacher. These are all wonderful goals to meet and I sometimes have a goal to be in that kind of job. But the problem with these general paths is there is no room for us to be imaginative and to go outside the box. We have all been taught that the only good kind of jobs are the ones that hold promise for being steady. The jobs that most people know about and know that it will be good.

I think especially in this upcoming generation and the next generation that people are ready to take on those uncommon jobs and really find out if they enjoy it more.

Dreaming without boundaries is so important because it is giving you the space to not limit what you can dream. Once we start putting walls up and rules about the way we dream, we might as well just throw that dream away. We have to be able to accept the challenge of finding that dream that we have and then backing it up to whatever obstacle there is.

Dawson wants to be a filmmaker and throughout the show you see him dream big and film a movie only to see others not respond to it the way that he thought and hoped they would. But he still got right back up and did what he loved because he knew in order to achieve his dream, he would have to dream without boundaries.

Currently where I am at in the show, Dawson has decided to put his filmmaking aside and he is trying to figure out what he really wants and if there is something else he likes more. However, I have a feeling that he is going to go right back to filmmaking and following that passion because that’s who he is.

Well like I said, I think you should watch this show and if you do end up watching is, leave some comments about what you like, don’t like and wish that could happen!

 

Check out my previous post for life updates…

 

That’s all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka…… M’lyn

Updates

Hello everyone! Long time no see…. Well it’s not like I could see you anyways through the screen… okay that was a cheesy joke. Anyways!!! How have you been? How’s summer been treating you? Did you go to Disneyland or Disney world??? If you are planning on going soon, can I go with you??

I went to California in June and we went to Universal, Knotts Berry Farm, and Disneyland for about 3 days! WOOO! We also went to Las Vegas at the end of the trip but I quite enjoyed the California part more. The bad thing that happened while I was there was that I GOT SICK! Why?!? I mean I feel like its bound to happen when you just go to a bunch of touristy parts of California but still! I got to see my best friend Ellie again while I was at Disney and we watched Mickey’s Magical Map together! That is definitely a memory I will never forget! It was definitely a moment where I thought to myself that I needed to work there.

I have been choreographing a couple of fun and I mean FUN dances with my dear friend and its one of my absolute favorite dances ever. We have truly created something that we both love and that we know others will love as well. Elluminate has not started back up yet but I am still enjoying my break and just having that time to hang out with the people from it without having to always dance….although I will always be open to dance.

I have been working all summer which is always fun when it comes to needing money but then not so fun when I want to hang out with people. It makes my life a little repetitive which easily annoys me but what can you do??? One word: Adulthood..

Next week I will start my first day as a dance teacher! I am not sure if I have many students or any at all yet but I am pretty excited about it! I will also be the receptionist for the studio on Mondays and Tuesdays so hopefully that goes well. Fall school starts on the 22 of August so I hope I don’t get too stressed out with all my commitments!

I am waiting patiently… Okay maybe not that patiently…. For the Disney College Program applications to come out. I should be in August or September when they come out but I have researched and it seems like it has come out around August the most. I am truly excited and truly scared all at the same time. It’s hard not being able to know exactly what you will be doing the next semester. Well at least for me. I feel like I have a lot of fun projects coming in the spring and that’s the same time I was planning on doing the program so it’s not going to be just a simple decision if I do get in.

I am still sick from June (about a month now) and so this last weekend I just stayed home, except for my bestie Karen’s bridal shower, and made mickey ears! I would post a picture of them but I am actually at work right now! Haha! Head on over to my Instagram for pictures! Mlyntwin

I will be trying to blog more as this next month comes. Life like I said has been super repetitive so I didn’t want to bore you with my boringness..

Okay stay tuned for more from your girl M’lyn!

That’s all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA: M’lyn

Christina Grimmie

So from this title, I am sure you can tell I am going to share my thoughts on what happened over the weekend with Christina Grimmie.

If you don't know what happened, Christina Grimmie was at a show in Orlando, Florida where she was the headliner for a band. She had finished her set and was outside the venue signing autographs and pictures. As she was happy and smiling with her fans, a 29 year old man came right up to her and shot her multiple times. The brother tackled the shooter and then the shooter shot himself.

It was about midnight when I had heard about what happened to Christina. I was browsing my instagram feed and saw that Shane Dawson, a YouTuber that I watch, had posted a picture of him and her and asked for people to pray for her. I was completely confused and so I went to Twitter to find out more.

When I read everything that happened, I was in complete shock. I ran to my sisters and told them the news. Christina was someone that I started watching on YouTube basically when I first started watching YouTube. I was really into watching people sing covers of songs and hearing how they twisted it to be completely different and that was what Christina did. Her voice was one of the best voices I have ever heard. She had the biggest vocal range and all in all you could just tell that she loved singing. When the news broke that she was going to be on The Voice, I was ecstatic and jumping for joy.

She was only 22 years old when she died that day.

The night that it all happened, I couldn't sleep at all. It wasn't like I had ever met her or was best friends with her, but it hurt my heart that it happened. She was one of the sweetest people out there. She didn't perform because she wanted money and fame, she performed because she loved it and wanted other people to be inspired by it. Bad things happen to good people and that is definitely what happened in this case.

It hurt me that this 22 year old (Which is very close to my age) would have everything ahead of her only to have it ripped away. Its hard to process something like that. I kept imagining how awful it must have been when it all happened and it just made me angry with the way the world is going. Why did this happen? Why is it so easy for these type of shootings to occur? When will change happen?

This situation resembled, to me the story of Selena Quintanilla. She was a singer from a while back that was just like Christina. She had impeccable talent and she had a good heart. One day she was fatally shot and was taken from the world too soon.

Christina may have died way too early, but she did leave a mark on peoples hearts. She inspired me to love what I do and to do it through God. I love to dance and its something that I want to do for a big part of my life. Christina helped to show me that if I love it, I can do it and that when I achieve my dreams its more important to do it for the people watching then for what I get out of it.

These events should not be occurring in our world. People should not be afraid to go outside because of what might happen to them. As if what happened to Christina wasn't bad enough, a bar in Orlando called Pulse was shot up killing 50 people. These were people that were just trying to enjoy life. They were there because they felt safe and they thought they would be totally fine. But unfortunately they weren't.

The hardest thing for me to comprehend about all of this, is that I don't know the solution. I don't know what we can do to make a change. And that scares me. People have started to think its okay to do these things but its not. Some say that the world is a scary place now, but I think people are becoming more scary.


Updates.....

In a matter of two days I will be going to California! Wooo! So excited. We are going to be going to Universal, Knotts Berry Farm, The beach, Disney! Everything! The best part is when I am at Disney my second family will be there! haha! They are going to be there for one day so it will be super hectic but it will be fun.

I am dog sitting for the family mentioned above until I leave and it is so fun. Most people know that I am mainly a people person, but this dog is super special and makes it all easy. Her name is Bubba and she is a pug.

I am still choreographing and dancing so its all fun!


Stay safe everyone and tell each other that you love one another.

That's all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka.. M'lyn

A Girl Like Her...

Okay everyone. This post might be a little serious compared to my other posts.
Tonight I was browsing Netflix, looking for something to watch since I could not decide what kind of mood I was in. I came across a movie called A Girl Like Her. I had heard of this movie but never got to the place of watching it. Tonight I was at that place.

A little back story about this movie is there is a girl named Jessica who for the last 6 months has been bullied by a girl named Avery. The two used to be friends but drifted apart. The beginning scene of the movie is showing Jessica finding pills and taking a handful. The mom finds her later and then the story takes its course. Jessica had one friend and he was someone that would make her have a better day when it felt like she was having the worst day ever. He found a pin that was a hidden camera and he told her to wear it so that they could capture just how mean this girl was to her. The whole movie was filmed as though the kids filmed it and like it was a documentary.

The moment that you are shown the video's about how Avery was to Jessica, it is heartbreaking for everyone watching. I found myself in my kitchen where I was watching it on my iPad, balling about it. Avery would start in the beginning just saying mean things to Jessica and using bad words, and then it went to a violent place where she would be physical and use texting and messaging to bully the girl.

It saddened me so much to see it. I have never been in this situation of being the bully or being bullied, but I know that other people have gone through something like this or even worse. I cried so much by this movie because it really makes even the people who have not been in this situation, think about what they have done or will encounter. It made me think about how I treat people and how I should treat them.

Something that stood out to me was a quote in the movie,"Hurt people hurt others." Avery lived a life that was not perfect even though so many thought it was. She had family that seemed to only know how to fight and she felt alone. Towards the end of the movie they showed her the footage of her bullying Jessica and she showed how hurt she was inside. How alone she felt. Everyone saw in that moment that she is not as perfect or strong as she makes others believe she is.

I related to this in the suicide storyline because of my close friend that committed suicide when we were sophomores in high school. When I saw the scenes of Jessica at her braking point, it made me think of my friend and I felt terrible wondering if he was like her. If he was so broken that he couldn't see the people that were there for him. I have always asked myself why I wasn't enough for him to want to stay alive, but I know that sometimes people just can't keep living the hard life that they live. And it makes me so sad for them.

If there is anything that people can take after this post, its that I am here for you. Even if I don't know you. Even if you don't know me. I am here for you. All it takes is one person to care and I will be that person for you. If you need someone to talk to, I will be there. If you need someone for anything at all, I am there. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. I am the type of person that will be there even when it feels like I am not. I may not always show signs of me being there but I am. God has placed me on a path to care for others, just like he has for so many other people. There are so many people out there to talk to and confide in and even though it is definitely scary to search for them, they are there.

If you are thinking about suicide, make sure to talk to someone that you trust. Find the help that is there for you because there are always other options. There is always hope.


~~~~UPDATES~~~~
Last week I taught dance all week at Carissa's studio and it was such a wonderful experience. I have learned to be comfortable with my teaching abilities and to not doubt what I know. I feel so blessed by everyone there. God is good.

My very good friends Johnny and Karen are getting married and I am so happy for them! There was a little party the day they got engaged and I felt so happy to be invited to it. They are so wonderful and I couldn't feel any more excited for them as I do now. When two wonderful people marry each other, it is a magical thing. :)

I have been getting ready for a garage sale and I am excited for it because I get to use the money for spending money on my Disney trip in June! WOO!

I have been missing my high school friends so much lately. Its random but I have been. I face timed one of my besties Ellie and it made me so happy. Never lose touch with the ones that impacted your life so much.

I have still been choreographing with my dear friend and I love it! Its everything I could ever want to make in a dance! Sharing passions like this with friends makes life so much more wonderful.

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,  Gossip Girl

AKA........ M'lyn

Before I knew what blogs were.

Hi everyone! Its been a while. A long time without you my friend...... That was cheesy...
Today I taught two dance classes at The Northern Colorado Dance Fusion in Greeley and it was wonderful. Its always an adventure when you put yourself in situations that you are not use to.

Over the weekend, I was pricing items that will be in a garage sale soon and I came across a box that had a bunch of notebooks in it. Journals that I had written in when I was little. I started to look through them and read what I thought was so important when I was younger. What was the most traumatizing thing of my life. What I noticed about my style of journaling was that I wrote much like how blogs were set up. Instead of gossiping about people or writing about what my sister did to me that day, I wrote about my life. I wrote about the experiences that I thought would be worth remembering. I would write about events that I went to in order to remember them when I read it.. Much like I did when I found it.

It made me start to wonder what other people have that resembles my journals. Did you write a journal about your life? Did you film videos on a recording device as if you were a YouTuber? Did you collect beauty products that turned into a huge passion of yours later?

I know these examples are pretty crazy and random, but the point that I am trying to get to is there are definite moments in our lives that give us a path to what we enjoy later.

I loved to write in my journal as if people were reading it. As if I was speaking to a group of people that wanted nothing more than to be inspired. I was a blogger before I even knew what blogging meant. We all have a path or passion that we want to pursue. These show up at random times and even though it might seem like the things that happen to us when we are younger are not that important, they could actually shape and lead us to our ultimate goal.

Journals, Vlogging, Photography... all the things that we loved to do have way more meaning than what first meets the eye. It is the start of something we never knew would come.

Well I hope this all makes sense and that you took something from it. I am sure you can tell that I don't really plan my posts too much and that is because I want to write as real as possible. If I find an idea that I want to write about I enjoy jumping right in and writing in that moment! Otherwise my thoughts are not what I discovered right in that moment! It would probably interesting to plan my thoughts out but I am so scatterbrained that the blog should reflect me as I am. Haha! See that didn't even really make sense.


Lets all inspire people

~~~~Updates!
Its summer! Woo! I know summer is suppose to be the time where you don't have school but I guess I didn't get that memo.. I am taking 4 summer classes this summer!! AHH! 2 in the first session that ends the end of June and then 2 in the second session that ends at the end of July! I love learning more about my major so these classes are something that I have no problem taking!

Dance is still present in my life! haha! For about 3 weeks now I have been choreographing a dance with one of my besties that is like nothing I have ever choreographed. Its super fun and just the best vibe ever! I love it! Its always crazy to me to think that I have come to where I have with my dancing and just every thing that has came from it. I am so blessed.

I have been teaching more dance classes! Its really fun! It challenges me like no other and It makes me really nervous all the time but I feel like its my path! I am super blessed by my friend Carissa who gives me more opportunities than I deserve!


Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA....... M'lyn Miller

A life that is better than the picture.

Hi everyone! Long time no see! haha! 

Well I have been super busy recently with dead week and finals. Nothing like the full college experience to make me want to sleep all day. Right now is a Friday night, 10:04 pm and all I want to do is write. Write my thoughts. Let my fingers type everything I am thinking. I don't know if its because of dead week or if I am just feeling inspired, but just go with it. 

When I was younger, I strived for happiness. I would never stop smiling and I would always want to be friends with everyone I met. I was definitely an innocent little one that believed there was nothing but good in the world. But hey... thats most of us at that age. I didn't have to worry about what I wanted to do with my life because I was just starting to live it and learn everyday. The biggest thing I had to remember to do was go to bed at my bedtime. Life is pretty simple when you are at that age. You don't have to worry about the bigger things that adults have to worry about. You can live your life and just have fun. 

When I went to middle school I was looking for a new beginning; a fresh start. I wanted to find what I wanted in this world. I wanted to see what life could be like when I found myself. Throughout that thinking, I was still looking for that happiness that I longed for. I was making friends and becoming my own person. I started to join volleyball and theatre in an attempt to find just where my spot was in this crazy world. Volleyball was something that really challenged me, but even though I was super outgoing, it would tear me down and make me scared that I was not good enough. I would stress over missing the ball and loosing a point for my team. So while I found it to be exhilarating, I was just not ready for the competitive side of it all.... and maybe I will never be ready for that. Theatre was a little bit closer to feeling like home. I was never the person that wanted to get the big lead roles, but I definitely wanted to be a part of it. I was always super silly and loved to talk and the theatre people were my kind of people. All of us were a little out of the box compared to others and we had a sense of humor that some may not understand. I was in a couple plays and I enjoyed being able to be on the stage, but I still ended up not feeling like that was the right fit for me. 

When I got into high school, I joined a dance group called Elluminate. Someone at my school had referred me to it and I went the 2nd week that it was started. When I went to my first day of dancing with the group, I was super nervous because even though a lot of them were from my school, I was worried that this would be a repeat of me not finding what I have been looking for. I kept going after that and as it went on I knew that it was something that was going to be a positive impact on my life. The people there were so welcoming and there was no pressure of having to be better than the person next to you. I had danced before and LOVED it but I had taken a break for a while and I definitely feel like God placed this group of people in my life for a reason. 

Now in college, I have been pursuing my love for dance by training in a bunch of different styles and I am feeling more happy than ever. The classes are crazy challenging and I sometimes doubt myself but I can feel myself becoming stronger and becoming a better dancer. I joined a dance group in Greeley and this was another example of God bringing something positive and new in my life for me. When I first joined I was worried about fitting in, but literally the first day, I was so welcomed into the group and they are all my best friends. I am still in Elluminate even though we are on a break and from time to time a few of us meet up and make up dances for events or the fun of it. 

I think God knew where I would find my happiness, but he just wanted me to experience some other things before I found the biggest thing that would affect my life. Happiness has always been there for me, it has just been in different forms than before. It was different but it was still pure happiness. God is pretty great. 

So I know that this was a ramble post but I just wanted to tap about how I found my better life. Where is yours? 

UPDATES

Spring semester is almost over! agh! I am so happy about that! I will be taking classes in the summer but its okay because summer is always better! haha! 

I am going on vacation to California in the summer and it is always fun for that! Disney here I come!

I am going to be choreographing a dance with someone next week and I am super excited!

Thats all for now. 

Until Next Time, 

XOXO,

Gossip Girl

AKA..... M'lyn 

To Master or To Not Master.

What a weird title huh?!?

Well I will explain soon what that means.

Lately I have been seeking inspiration everywhere. I have been looking for something that makes me want to try something new. While I still have inspiration from whats going on right now (Dance, School, life) I am just trying to find something that makes me think of something new and different to achieve.

Well I don't know if I have fully found that yet but I have found something new I want to tackle.... Graduate School. God has given me a new path that is SUPER scary. One day it just hit me that I wanted to go further in my education than just a bachelor's degree. I am hoping to get my Masters in Dance Education. Wow. So weird to even think that it might be something I go after. I have never been someone that was good at school but I have really applied myself lately to my school work and my heart is telling me that this is what I am suppose to do. God works in such mysterious ways and even when we can't see how smart or how wonderful we are, he always sees it. He gives us the courage to go after things that we never thought we would want.

These last few years have made me really look towards God for help. I have found my own faith instead of what my parents faith.

I feel like God wants this for me and that he knows its something that I could accomplish. He wants me to accomplish it.

So whats the plan now?
Well I am hoping to do the Disney College Program sometime in-between my bachelors degree (Next spring) and then I hope to graduate Spring of 2018. After that I hope to start right away getting my Masters. It will take about 2 years and while I am working on that I hope to go back to Disney and work my way up through the company. Something that I would love to do with the company is be a choreographer or work or their marketing/advertising section of the company.

WOO GO LIFE! haha! I am loving it right now and I feel so blessed by everything and everyone in it.


UPDATES
So this fall I might be a dance teacher for the studio that I go to! Right now I have just been subbing and I have loved it. I love to dance but being able to help others with their passion is just as satisfying. So I hope that happens because I would be extremely happy.

This semester is almost over which is so fun! haha! I have been struggling tremendously with math class and I am just praying that I will pass. Send me your prayers. haha!

This summer I am going back to California and whats really fun is that the Burroughs/Clines will be there the same time! Random! but yeah! I hope to see my best friend Ellie but I am not too sure of the plan yet.

Something that I am hoping so much for is that there will be another Disney audition this summer! Amy and I are dying to go again and we hope to bring along our friend Andrew! Its fun having other people want to do the same things as me! It makes it so much more special!

So yes! Life is pretty crazy but its super wonderful as well!

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka..... M'lyn

Take A Walk....Look Around.

Hi there,
Whats up?
Its been awhile.
How's life been?

So since I just got a Fitbit, I have started to go on walks more. Around my neighborhood, at a park, around campus.. Everywhere! I have never been one that would want to go on walks because I figured I walk around all day trying to get to the places that I need to be. But lately I have found that going on walks are way more than I thought them to be.

God has created a world for us to discover and explore. Every single spot in this world is worth us looking at and appreciating; even the good old Greeley. Many people believe in order to see beauty in our location, we have to go somewhere glamorous or somewhere that others have never been to. But this world of ours has beauty even in the smallest towns.

When I go on walks around Greeley, I have started to take notice of whats in front of me. I have lived here my whole life and I thought I knew everything there was to know about this place I call home. But theres more.

There's trees in the most perfect places. There are plants that smell and look exquisite. There are buildings that have been crafted in such a fine tip way that they are hard to look away from.

Beyond the looks of the area I am in, there is a sense of hope and stillness. These walks have given me time to think about whats important to me. The things I am afraid to think about and ask questions about. It makes me feel like I am connected to God because I am surrounded by his creation.

I know this all sounds weird. Trust me. Even as I am writing this (About to fall asleep from Exhaustion) I realize that it sounds like I am talking in code or something no one understands. But what I am trying to get at is to look around sometimes at what world you are living in. Its pretty remarkable. When you choose to open your eyes and see that your life is wonderful, you forget all the negative things and only focus on the good. Positivity will flow through you and its a feeling like no other.


UPDATES
Okay so I have been super busy lately with the end of the semester coming up and just the stress that I sometimes overwhelm myself with but I thought I would write a blog about how I am dealing with it and thats what this was suppose to be. haha! Anyways! I have been dancing A LOT lately and I have been falling in love with it more and more. I have found what I love about it again and I feel like myself when I dance. I still am doubtful of myself but I feel at such a good place.

My sister is thinking about coming to the Disney College Program with me which is super exciting! We can be roomies just like when we were womb mates! okay thats a little morbid but you know what I am saying.

I have been assisting at Carissa's studio in Greeley and its getting better every time. The little ones are the cutest and they have been warming up to me! Its so fun to see their passion for dance and to see them grow. They are pretty crazy talented already so I can't wait to see how good they are when they get older!

Anyways.

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

AKA... M'lyn

My Top 3 Pinterest Searches.

So this post is going to be super random but I thought it would be interesting if I shared what I like to look at on Pinterest. I am pretty much obsessed with Pinterest and I love to look at all the different creative things we all can try to do.

So my first thing I like to look at is:

1. Quotes

This quote I love because it is super simple and has my favorite type of font. I find that in life we need to make sure that the people we surround ourselves with are inspiring and wonderful. When we find those people, it makes our lives that much better.

This wrote is so special for me to read. God has given us all so many talents and gifts that he wants us to use to help others. I have always had the ultimate dream that I would dance at Disney and make other little children happy and inspired. Of course Disney is not my only way of doing that but I feel in my heart that its my path to start with. 

These quotes are ones that I find to be the best to pin. Whenever I am going through something, I like to look up these kind of quotes and really read them to where I understand them. They help me see things in perspective. I grow from it and I feel so much better after reading these. 

The next type of pins I like to look at are

2. Fashion pins

Summer is coming up and Pinterest is the best place where I can find summer type clothing. Now of course the fashion that is on Pinterest is not easy to locate but its fun to dream. :) 

Since I am obsessed with dancing, I like to look for cute leggings like these! Of course I don't just wear them for dance, college students pretty much live in workout clothes. So basically I am just looking at them like I look at jeans.... A necessity. haha! :) 

A wonderful aspect of Pinterest is to find fun shirts like these. I LOVE donut clothing and just unique pieces of clothing like this and Pinterest always has my back when I need it. :) 

The last pins I like to look at are:

3. Hair

Now who wouldn't want their hair to look as effortless as this. I mean its gorgeous. Pinterest is a wonderful place for people to find prom hairstyles or just some cute ways to style their hair. 

I also love to dream about having fun colors like this. Whats funny about this picture is it actually looks like my hair.. haha! I have super short hair and it is at an angle like this. My favorite color is Pink and I would totally do this if I could pull it off. 

And just like every other girl, I like to look at hairstyles for when I get married. It will definitely be a long time before I get married (and probably even get a boyfriend) but I will always have fun looking at what cute ideas are out there. I like to look at it as I am training until the big day so it can be BAM magical! 

Well thanks for reading probably one of the most random posts ever. I just thought it would be fun to share what I like to look at on Pinterest. Go ahead and leave a comment on what you like to look at. I would love to expand my searches. 

UPDATES

Tomorrow is Easter and I have to get up super early for practice for the Easter service. Its all good because it will be super fun! Hanging out with some of my favorite people is not too bad either. 

I taught my very first dance class on Tuesday and I loved it so much. I taught some little ones hip hop and made them a combo that definitely challenged them! Some parents even called to compliment my class and wonder when I will be back. Its so crazy to me because I have always said I wanted to be a dance teacher and for the parents and kids to like me.. It makes everything seem so much easier and like it will actually happen! 

I don't know about you guys but time goes by way to fast. Like Spring semester is almost over!?!?!? WHAT!

This summer, My twin and my grandparents and I will be going to California again, and you know what that means DISNEYLAND! Gosh I love that place. I will probably take hundreds of pictures and I will even blog for you all! 

That's all for now.

Until next time,

XOXO,

Gossip Girl

AKA..... M'lyn 

I'm Back!

Okay if any of you are here reading this from my youtube channel and you have been wondering when I would start my videos back up, don't wonder any more! They are coming back at you this monday.

Making YouTube videos had always seemed like such a fun and challenging thing to do. And while I loved making videos every week, it just wasn't possible for my schedule. I dance almost everyday, I go to college and have what seems like endless amount of homework to finish, and I had to go to work everyday. There has just been no time for me to make videos.

So I took a break because when I was watching my video's, I felt like who I was looking at was not really me. It was what I thought people wanted to see and that is just something that I couldn't continue for much longer. I feel like in order to post these video's, even if it is a random video, should show me exactly how I am. It is such a vulnerable thing to do when you post a video that anyone can watch and then hope that people like it. I wasn't focusing a lot on the video's and so I made the decision that I have to take a break to find me and to find that passion to do the video's the right way.

Sometimes even when you love something so much, you have to set it free. Maybe not permanently, but for enough time that you can feel happy and ready to find it again. I loved posting the videos and getting better at editing, but towards the end I just felt drained and stressed out.

Today, I am feeling in such a better place. I always said I would not film until I felt 100% that it was time. Even when my mind would be like just do it, I would never follow through because my heart was not ready yet. But yesterday I filmed a video and I feel like I was completely my self... awkwardness and all.

I guess what I want people to take away from this blog post is to never be afraid to take a step back from what you love. Sure its something thats fun and you feel passionate about it, but sometimes it will take over your happiness and you can feel lost. You will feel like you are a different person. So even though I loved it I had to walk away. And like I said, if you do end up setting something that you love free, you can always go back to that path, just make sure you are in the mindset that you have been trying to get to.

So yes. Get ready for some awkwardness and weird videos. I have the schedule set for every other monday, but if I miss a monday, I miss a monday. Stressing about making the deadline will just put me back at that place I was before and I want more for my channel, the video's, and for myself!

Love you all!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~UPDATES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Besides the fact that I am starting the channel back up, It's a snow day here in Greeley! WOOO! I am so excited because I got to sleep in until 11! #Goals #winning #IllStopnow

Lately I have been feeling super thankful and just loved. I feel supported and there are so many people that believe in me and so I am feeling like some great blogs, videos and just things in general are to come so be ready.

This Sunday is Easter! He is risen! Woo! The project will be happening that day and I just feel so blessed. I feel like God has been there right with us to carry it in the direction it needs to go. I feel like its going to be for him and just inspire others that day.



That's all for now.
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka... M'lyn

A life that's meaningful.

Recently... Well all the time, I have been thinking about where my life is headed and what choices I have made so far.
Life is such a crazy ride full of unexpected obstacles and triumphs. In particular, being in college has forced me to focus on my life way more than I ever had. I have had to look at what I want as my end result, who I want to be there and what I will do to get there. I have had so many dreams throughout my life. When I was about 10 I told my parents that when I grow up, I want to be a golf cart driver because they get to drive all around. At the time, that seemed like the best thing ever. Just cruising down the street in my golf cart. Well I obviously changed that as the years went on.

Later in my life, when I was 16 I thought I wanted to be a journalist. I had always loved writing down what I thought and what my feelings were. I thought that if I could string words together that made people feel something than I would be happy forever. While I still have that urge to write, I decided it wasn't my path.

Now today, My dreams are to go to Disneyland or Disneyworld and be a performer. Being on stage gives me the best feeling that nothing else has ever fulfilled. I have always loved dancing from when I was little doing tap and ballet to when I was 13 twirling my baton everywhere to now when I am actively pursuing that dream by training as hard as I can. I also want to go into media advertising. Technology is where everything is going and I want to be a part of it. So even though I have the realistic dream job and then the one that others probably see as unobtainable. I bet you can guess which one works out for me.

Its kind of funny to think that throughout my life, I was always doing some kind of dancing but I never thought of it as something that I wanted to do until now.

Okay so now that you know what I want to do and how weird my dreams are, lets talk about how to find a life thats meaningful. With all of my dreams and hopes for the future, there is one thing that is very clear for me, and that is to have a life that has meaning. I think we all want that at some point. We want to live a life that others can be inspired by. A life that brings happiness or some kind of emotion to others because we made them feel that way. Well what I have learned over the years is that its up to you to make your life meaningful. I know. I was hoping there was an easy button to press to. But its fully true that in order to make a life that others are impacted on, you have to see your life that way as well. Dreams are not just suppose to be things that we wish would happen, they are suppose to be things we chase after and do anything and everything we can to become a reality.

Take chances even when it seems scary because those chances can turn into a million opportunities.

I know this was random but by now I am sure you are not surprised at all. Make a list of what your dreams are. Even if its just one simple dream, make sure you do anything you can to make it a reality.  At least try. That's all you could ever ask for yourself.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~UPDATES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Last night I went and saw my friend Andrew perform at The Addams Family play at West high school. There's something so fun to go and support your friends. He is super talented and it was fun to watch him in his element. You go Andrew you go!!! haha! Also he did the tango and it was the best thing I have ever seen. :) If you live in Greeley go check it out.

One of my friends is getting married and she asked me to help out by serving food at her wedding! Its such an honor to even do that because I am just so happy for them and to be a part of it even in this way is super great.

The project that I have loved dearly is almost done. We are meeting tomorrow night to practice it some more and then on easter its time to do it! I will be so sad when its over but I feel so blessed to be doing it with such an amazing group. God has blessed me with some great people for sure.

I am going to be going to Cali in the summer which is soooo exciting! My best friend Ellie is graduating during my trip and even though I don't think I will be at the ceremony, I am hoping to see her and just hug her for 5 hours! haha! But yes. I am super excited about that!


Well that's all for now!
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka.... M'lyn

It's Time's Like These Where I Feel Most Thankful.

AHHH! So Day of Dance was yesterday and I can't even explain how great it was!
When the time for us to perform came up, I literally had too many nerves to contain. I was shaking, my heart was feeling like it was going to jump out of my chest and I wanted to scream! I walked out to the dance floor and knelt down to my starting position. I had so many thoughts going through my head, "Get the timing right M'lyn" "Make sure to do the jump" "Make sure to smile". The music came on and I jumped around and started my fun Hip Hop routine choreographed by the amazing Carissa.

The thing about me is I can doubt myself a lot. When I am learning a new move or dance, I am always judging how I look or how what I could do to be better. But when I perform.. It's like I am in a different world. This performance specifically, I felt myself just be free and even though seconds before starting to dance I was questioning everything and trying to remind myself what I needed to do, I instantly forgot about everyone who was there and just lived in the moment. I can honestly say that this performance was one that felt so different but so good.

Something that was really great about the day is that I had some pretty amazing people there to watch me. I had my amazing friend and Elluminate coach Andy there literally in the front on the floor watching me dance. And she had her little one Sarah to watch as well. And I had Johnny and Karen (The cutest couple eva) there to watch me as well. I knew they were there for me right in the beginning. Basically because Johnny yelled but still! haha! My group performed pretty early in the day at 9:30 and they still came to see me dance. God has put me on such a whirlwind of a journey. There has been more times than I can count on my finger where I was confused about why he was putting my life in the direction that he was, but in that moment, I felt incredibly thankful that this is where I have ended up. That I have some amazing people in my life that I know will support me, that will be there yelling my name. Gosh I just have such amazing friends. I feel like I did the same that day as well because I had some other friends performing and I knew that I would not miss it for the world. It feels great to be supported and to be a supporter as well. Obviously there are many others that were not there that I feel the same way about. I know that they would be there if they were not out pursuing the things they love as well.

People really pull through for you when you need them most. I feel like I have surrounded myself by the best people around and that I am truly myself when I am around them. They have accepted me for my crazy, weird and unpredictable self.

Friends are important in your life. The journey to finding the best ones is a long one. People will come and go. But the true ones will stay. If I can give any advice, I would say to be yourself and know what you want. Don't be afraid to have to let go and make hard decisions for your life because that is the only way you will find your happiness. When you love yourself and love where your life is going, others will love you too.

SO thank you everyone that has been there for me along my journey on this life roller coaster. I know I am definitely unbearable sometimes, but you guys are the MVP. The truest friends around. The coolest. The ones that have helped me find my happiness. Much love.


UPDATES
Well I don't have a lot of updates but Day of Dance was everything I expected it to be and more! The day could not have been more perfect and to top it off, I got to spend the afternoon doing more fun things with friends and meeting cute little children to help out with our project!

Spring break is next week and I might cry from excitement. The thing about Spring semester is that it is literally the most boring semester ever. There are never any breaks and it always feels looooonnnng! But I am excited to sleep in and eat chocolate for a week! WOOO!

You guys are great. Make sure to thank the people that support you. They will be there for you always and they feel the love back more than you know. You are all beautiful!

Are you guys going on spring break soon? If so, What are your plans? Netflix and chill is always a good option... :)

Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO
Gossip Girl

Aka.... M'lyn

The Impact we don't realize we have.

Hello Lovelies! How are you? How's the weather? How's school? How's work??
haha!
Right now it is 11:47pm on a friday night and I am suuuupppppeeeerrrrr tired.... and yet I can't seem to fall asleep. Don't you just love when that happens?!

So upon having barely opened eyes and the day literally minutes from being over, I decided it was a perfect time to blog something I have been meaning to blog for a while!
AND THAT IS>>>> Cue the drums.
Our Impact on all things.

The other day, I was walking to meet my dad on campus and I passed by a guy that I had in one of my dance classes in the previous semester. We did not really talk when we were in class but we definitely knew of each other. When we were moments from passing by, I gave him a little smile and he automatically said "Hi" in the happiest way ever. I could tell that he remembered me and even though the moment seems like such a random and pointless moment to others, I got such a wonderful feeling in my stomach because even though I thought he would have no idea who I was, he did.
Side note: The theatre and dance department at UNC literally has the most nicest people you will ever meet. I have made more friends with people from that side of campus then I ever have. I have yet to meet one person that is not positive and welcoming. You go theatre students you go. (that was a semi Mean Girls reference..... and it was lame.. haha sorry.)

On the same day of my crossing paths with a fellow dance student, I had my semi-annual dentist appointment. Now I know what you are thinking... Why are you comparing a dentist appointment to something positive. Just wait its coming. My nurse had just finished cleaning my teeth and I was waiting for the dentist, and then all of the sudden a different nurse comes to my station and remembers me. She said, "M'lyn, how was your audition?" (For those that don't know, I went to a Disney audition back in june and I was super nervous about it). I was dumbfounded. How did she remember this, it was literally 7 months ago that I was here talking about this wonderful opportunity and how I didn't know what I would do about it. I started talking to her and telling her all about it and she told me she was excited for me.
This moment was so crazy for me. When you go to the dentist you never know who is going to be your nurse and you do share stories with them. But the fact that this wonderful lady remembered me after seeing many more patients in-between really warmed my heart. You think that a simple event, one that many others go through, would just be another day of having tools overtake your mouth, but this time it was a moment that I will cherish forever.

You thought I was done with my stories.... Well after this one I am! haha!
I work on campus in the Graduate School with some amazing fellow students, and the other day my friend Laura that I work with was telling me that she was talking to one of her friends about me. She was showing a picture that I had just posted and she told her friend that I am so nice and sweet and that she should get to know me. Well the twist is that I actually kind of know that person! She is in one of my online classes. So although we have never met in person, she still was able to remember me.
This moment was cool because when Laura was describing me, she was saying nothing but positive things. Something that I really strive for is to make people happy and for them to see that I am genuine and positive. When she told me this story, I was feeling super content and proud of myself. I have had so many hurdles that I have had to face and I feel like through it all I have never lost sight of who I was and who I wanted to be.


Moments are something that we all don't realize are important. Now of course we know moments are good, but sometimes we think these moments are more simple than they really are. These 3 things that happened to me made me realize that we truly are able to make someones life different. Our presence is enough to make someone feel impacted by us.

I hope you find your times and moments of impact because I am sure you have many.


UPDATES:
Tomorrow is Day of Dance!!! AHHHHH (Well today haha.. its 12:13 am). I am so crazy nervous. This is my first time perfuming with my new dance group and I don't want to let them down! Carissa put me in the front and while I am super humbled by it I am definitely feeling the pressure! We have been having some timing issues and I just want to make sure that I am on point when we perform!

I have released my new "Business" if you will called Filmography. I have been filming Carissa's classes and its been going really well! Carissa has so much faith in me and really believes I could do this for a real career! I have no idea if it will be something that I make my career but I am definitely having fun with it! God knows whats best for me and I am just excited to see what he puts in front of me!

Tomorrow after Day of Dance, the project that we have been working on will be meeting again! Its almost time for it to come to life and I am definitely going to be sad when its over! Its always fun to have something fun and new and I am just appreciating it every moment I can.

Thats all for now,
Keep being the awesome person that you are because other people will take notice!
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA.... M'lyn

The Liebster Award!

Hi everyone!
So I was nominated by Talkative Girl (Time To Stop Talking) and I can definitely say that I had no idea what it was! haha! But I knew that I was tremendously honored to just have someone read and love my blog! So I am going to answer the questions and then nominate some people at the end! Lets get started shall we!!??

The Questions

What's your favorite song?

Well I will be honest and say that I am very bad at knowing what music is good and what is bad. I am basically behind with whats popular. BUT! I do a song that I am totally loving right now and that is Work From Home by Fifth Harmony. They just released their video for it and I loved it so much! It has fun dance beats and just really great vocals and I am hoping that I can make a dance to it! Check it out if you haven't already!!

Do you have any pets?

I have a chihuahua Jack russel dog and her name is Bella. She loves to think that she is the biggest dog ever and that she can protect everyone but she is just a scared little dog. haha! My sister has a bearded dragon but that is mainly her pet. I am definitely more of a people person! 

Have you ever been on Holiday? If so, where?

I have went to California to go to Disneyland with the family but its been a while since we have all went! I recently went so that I could audition for Disney but it was just me and my bestie that went. I want to go to Paris so bad but that will be something that will take quite a while! 

How long have you been blogging for?

I have had multiple blogs going, but this one (Different perspective) has been one that I am being more focused on. I feel like I have a really good direction with it so I want to just keep inspiring others while I write about what I am going through! Its all good! I love blogging a lot and I feel like I can really get through things that I would normally not be able to get through on my own. I am just writing because it is fun and I love it! I have a youtube channel but I have been holding that off for a bit because I want to make sure I am ready to take it on and to do it well!

What is your favorite film?

Oh gosh! Movies are my thing and I love so many of them! I would say as of right now my favorite movie is Something Borrowed. It has cute romance and just a fun feeling to it! I love it a lot and I have watched it over and over again! Check it out! 

What is your dream job?

I want to dance at Disneyland one day. I love the company and what it stands for and I just want to help make little kids smile and have the best vacation ever! I honestly wouldn't even mind working retail there. I just want to be involved with the company so bad!

Who is your favorite singer?

Well I gotta go with either my bae Justin Bieber or my other bae Charlie Puth. They are both so talented and they released their new albums that are pure genius! I am obsessed with both of them! 

Favorite food?

I love potatoes. haha! Any restaurant that I go to I have to have some kind of potatoes. I also love chic Fil La in general. So yeah! :) 

Biggest Fear?

SPIDERS....... Need I say more. 

Greatest Strength/Weakness?

I would say my greatest strength is that I am caring and nice to everyone. I am always wanting to meet new people and wanting to talk to them. I care a lot about people and I just want to do anything to make them happy! My weakness is that sometimes I get to caught up in things and don't think about what I say or do. It can make a lot of problems arise.... OOPS. haha! :) 

What age would you have kids? How many?

Wow! This is a hard one especially seeing as I have never even dated anyone. I would like to say 27 I would be ready for that and that I would like to have 3 or 4. An even number would be good because then hopefully one would not be left out. 

Rules:

• This award exists only on the internet, and is given to bloggers by other bloggers.
• It has German origins – the word “liebster” has several definitions: dearest, sweetest, kindest, nicest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, welcome, sweetheart and boyfriend (really?)
• It follows similar principles as a chain letter, in the sense that it should be passed forward to a certain number of people.
• It can be misconstrued, depending upon your personal views, as either something wonderful (who doesn't like awards?) or as an annoyance (a chain letter that involves work).
• The choice lies within each of us to ACCEPT it, and continue PAYING IT FORWARD or to refuse to accept it, thereby STOPPING or INTERRUPTING the chain. However, if you stop the chain, you are only hurting yourself (keep reading for benefits you will have)!
• Personal views play an important part in our choice to participate. Some people have refused to accept it and have made attempts to “break the chain”. There have been many people who have been nominated, yet refused to accept it, and now their blogs have been abandoned.
• Variations have been made over time to the “rules”.
• Marketing plays a role in accepting this award, as other bloggers are promoted. (This is not a bad thing, however, since people should help others!)
• Other awards are a part of thiis These include “One Lovely Blog Award”, the “Sunshine Blog Award” and the “Versatile Writer Award”.

I think this award is so cool and just really fun to get other blogs noticed! WOOO! 

I nominate: 

NightWalker Short Romantic Love Stories Blog

Creatively Bored

Ali-Lin Skim + Sink

Sarah A Glimpse of Blue

Fisheemich Hey Mich (The Fish Swims)

For the People I nominated:

What is one place you want to visit?

Do you have any siblings?

What can you not live without?

Who has been the most impactful in your life?

How long have you been blogging?

What is your favorite book?

Have you been to Disneyland/Disney World?

What are your goals for the future?

What is your favorite quote you have ever heard?

What is something you wish you were better at?

Favorite type of clothing?

Favorite place you have visited?

One word that describes your blog?

Thats all for now!

Until Next Time, 

XOXO,

Gossip Girl

AKA.... M'lyn

Feeling inadequate.

It's easy to feel like we don't belong. Like people don't care about us. But the thing is... That's not true at all. You are loved more than you are shown.

It's easy to feel like we're never good enough. Like our dreams won't come true. Like we are not as good at that (fill in the blank). But that's not true either. Sure there will be someone that is better, but you need to be better than your past self, not better than that person next to you.

I am a big believer on making sure people love themselves. That people feel like they are enough. I use to be that person that would doubt my abilities. I would feel like I should just give up on that dream because I will never get to that level. And while that feeling still shows up, I feel so much better about myself. I feel accomplished and I feel like I truly belong.

The only thing that is keeping you from feeling like you are worth it is yourself. I want people to feel like they are good. That they are loved. That they can be that person they have always wanted to be. If you ever meet me, I can promise you that I will make it my mission to become your friend. Because even before I meet you I will care about you. Because we are all brothers and sisters in Christ. And because I just care. Plain and simple.

Updates:
Day of dance is next Saturday! Ahh! It's definitely I weird feeling performing with a different group but I am so excited about it. I would be so much more nervous if it wasn't for everyone being so welcoming and loving to me. It's going to be great.

I released two videos yesterday for Carissa's studio and it was such a vulnerable feeling for me. I am super proud of what I did for them but there is always that feeling of missing something. But Carissa is such a wonderful person and supporter that I feel really great about it. I feel like I can do this and do it well.

Today was more practice for our upcoming project! It's definitely something that is not secret but I don't want to reveal things about it until it gets closer. I feel super blessed by it and I just feel loved by the group of us. We have been together doing what we love for a while and so this has just felt so natural. I am super excited and I will probably film it on the day. So stay tuned!!!

That's all for now!

You are great. Find your happiness and remember you are loved more than you know.

Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

AKA..... M'lyn

The Power of Happiness.

There are many things in life that we take for granted. We think that things will just come easy to us or be there when we really need it.

Happiness will not just appear in your life. You can't seek to find it in people or force it from them.

Happiness comes from within. It comes from the people that are there for you even in your darkest moments. The people that will fight for you when you don't have any fight left in yourself.

Happiness comes from how you live out your passions. When you love something, never give it up. Even when there are others trying to bring you down or make you feel like you can't go far with that passion... Keep doing it.

Happiness comes from the way you live your life. In order to be happy, you have to see the world in a positive way. You have to be excited for whats next and what your future will bring.

I, like many other people in this world, have had their off moments. Their moments where they don't feel happy or excited about what the day brings. When I was in high school, I went on a field trip for my spanish class. I had been talking to one of my best friends the day before about how we would sit on the bus together and how we would eat lunch together that day. Well when going on the bus, I couldnt find him. He wasn't there. I didn't think much of it, just that he was probably not feeling well. I went on to the field trip and as the day went on, I was pulled out of a seminar and sat down in the lobby of the event. There was a group of us, all that I knew very well. The next few minutes were moments that I still look back today and get sad at. They told us that my best friend took his life last night. Utter disbelief turned into tears that were uncontrollable. Why would this happen? What did I do wrong? Why didn't I see the signs? We left the field trip early and went home. I sat in my room the rest of the day unable to know what to feel or do next. Even to this day, I feel like I see him in people or watch movies that bring back memories and I get back to that crying feeling all over again. I have made peace with it, but I will never be okay with it. Something that I found through this event is that I did not blame God for what happened. It would be so easy but I was just thankful that my friend was in my life even for just a bit.

God has put me through so many things I never thought I would go through. But I have never felt more thankful for him. He has shown me so many different ways on how to live life to the fullest. He has given be opportunities that I thought would never go on my path.

Hard times and stressful moments will always come, but what God does is shows you the light through the darkness. I have never felt more happy in my life than I do right now. I still get stressed with things like school and grown up decisions I have to make, but I feel so thankful that God has given me the life he has today.

Find your light through the darkness and even when something happens that you can't even imagine happening, move on to find you happiness.

This is super random but I thought I had to post this because I have been watching Grey's Anatomy. Meredith just went through something really traumatic and she is struggling to find her happiness. I thought about my moment where I didn't know what would happen next or if I would find that happiness again. But I did because of God and because of the friends and family I have around me.

Find your happiness because it is super powerful.

UPDATES
Day of Dance is next week and I am so excited! I am performing with a new group this time and it is super scary but so fun and exciting. I think I would be way too nervous and scared if I didn't have the wonderful group of people that are a new addition to my dance family that I have in the group. They make me want to be better.

We have our weekly project meetings and I love it. Any excuse to see my original dance family I am all for it.


Thats all for now!
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA..... M'lyn