AHHH! So Day of Dance was yesterday and I can't even explain how great it was!
When the time for us to perform came up, I literally had too many nerves to contain. I was shaking, my heart was feeling like it was going to jump out of my chest and I wanted to scream! I walked out to the dance floor and knelt down to my starting position. I had so many thoughts going through my head, "Get the timing right M'lyn" "Make sure to do the jump" "Make sure to smile". The music came on and I jumped around and started my fun Hip Hop routine choreographed by the amazing Carissa.
The thing about me is I can doubt myself a lot. When I am learning a new move or dance, I am always judging how I look or how what I could do to be better. But when I perform.. It's like I am in a different world. This performance specifically, I felt myself just be free and even though seconds before starting to dance I was questioning everything and trying to remind myself what I needed to do, I instantly forgot about everyone who was there and just lived in the moment. I can honestly say that this performance was one that felt so different but so good.
Something that was really great about the day is that I had some pretty amazing people there to watch me. I had my amazing friend and Elluminate coach Andy there literally in the front on the floor watching me dance. And she had her little one Sarah to watch as well. And I had Johnny and Karen (The cutest couple eva) there to watch me as well. I knew they were there for me right in the beginning. Basically because Johnny yelled but still! haha! My group performed pretty early in the day at 9:30 and they still came to see me dance. God has put me on such a whirlwind of a journey. There has been more times than I can count on my finger where I was confused about why he was putting my life in the direction that he was, but in that moment, I felt incredibly thankful that this is where I have ended up. That I have some amazing people in my life that I know will support me, that will be there yelling my name. Gosh I just have such amazing friends. I feel like I did the same that day as well because I had some other friends performing and I knew that I would not miss it for the world. It feels great to be supported and to be a supporter as well. Obviously there are many others that were not there that I feel the same way about. I know that they would be there if they were not out pursuing the things they love as well.
People really pull through for you when you need them most. I feel like I have surrounded myself by the best people around and that I am truly myself when I am around them. They have accepted me for my crazy, weird and unpredictable self.
Friends are important in your life. The journey to finding the best ones is a long one. People will come and go. But the true ones will stay. If I can give any advice, I would say to be yourself and know what you want. Don't be afraid to have to let go and make hard decisions for your life because that is the only way you will find your happiness. When you love yourself and love where your life is going, others will love you too.
SO thank you everyone that has been there for me along my journey on this life roller coaster. I know I am definitely unbearable sometimes, but you guys are the MVP. The truest friends around. The coolest. The ones that have helped me find my happiness. Much love.
UPDATES
Well I don't have a lot of updates but Day of Dance was everything I expected it to be and more! The day could not have been more perfect and to top it off, I got to spend the afternoon doing more fun things with friends and meeting cute little children to help out with our project!
Spring break is next week and I might cry from excitement. The thing about Spring semester is that it is literally the most boring semester ever. There are never any breaks and it always feels looooonnnng! But I am excited to sleep in and eat chocolate for a week! WOOO!
You guys are great. Make sure to thank the people that support you. They will be there for you always and they feel the love back more than you know. You are all beautiful!
Are you guys going on spring break soon? If so, What are your plans? Netflix and chill is always a good option... :)
Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO
Gossip Girl
Aka.... M'lyn
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