A life that is better than the picture.

Hi everyone! Long time no see! haha! 

Well I have been super busy recently with dead week and finals. Nothing like the full college experience to make me want to sleep all day. Right now is a Friday night, 10:04 pm and all I want to do is write. Write my thoughts. Let my fingers type everything I am thinking. I don't know if its because of dead week or if I am just feeling inspired, but just go with it. 

When I was younger, I strived for happiness. I would never stop smiling and I would always want to be friends with everyone I met. I was definitely an innocent little one that believed there was nothing but good in the world. But hey... thats most of us at that age. I didn't have to worry about what I wanted to do with my life because I was just starting to live it and learn everyday. The biggest thing I had to remember to do was go to bed at my bedtime. Life is pretty simple when you are at that age. You don't have to worry about the bigger things that adults have to worry about. You can live your life and just have fun. 

When I went to middle school I was looking for a new beginning; a fresh start. I wanted to find what I wanted in this world. I wanted to see what life could be like when I found myself. Throughout that thinking, I was still looking for that happiness that I longed for. I was making friends and becoming my own person. I started to join volleyball and theatre in an attempt to find just where my spot was in this crazy world. Volleyball was something that really challenged me, but even though I was super outgoing, it would tear me down and make me scared that I was not good enough. I would stress over missing the ball and loosing a point for my team. So while I found it to be exhilarating, I was just not ready for the competitive side of it all.... and maybe I will never be ready for that. Theatre was a little bit closer to feeling like home. I was never the person that wanted to get the big lead roles, but I definitely wanted to be a part of it. I was always super silly and loved to talk and the theatre people were my kind of people. All of us were a little out of the box compared to others and we had a sense of humor that some may not understand. I was in a couple plays and I enjoyed being able to be on the stage, but I still ended up not feeling like that was the right fit for me. 

When I got into high school, I joined a dance group called Elluminate. Someone at my school had referred me to it and I went the 2nd week that it was started. When I went to my first day of dancing with the group, I was super nervous because even though a lot of them were from my school, I was worried that this would be a repeat of me not finding what I have been looking for. I kept going after that and as it went on I knew that it was something that was going to be a positive impact on my life. The people there were so welcoming and there was no pressure of having to be better than the person next to you. I had danced before and LOVED it but I had taken a break for a while and I definitely feel like God placed this group of people in my life for a reason. 

Now in college, I have been pursuing my love for dance by training in a bunch of different styles and I am feeling more happy than ever. The classes are crazy challenging and I sometimes doubt myself but I can feel myself becoming stronger and becoming a better dancer. I joined a dance group in Greeley and this was another example of God bringing something positive and new in my life for me. When I first joined I was worried about fitting in, but literally the first day, I was so welcomed into the group and they are all my best friends. I am still in Elluminate even though we are on a break and from time to time a few of us meet up and make up dances for events or the fun of it. 

I think God knew where I would find my happiness, but he just wanted me to experience some other things before I found the biggest thing that would affect my life. Happiness has always been there for me, it has just been in different forms than before. It was different but it was still pure happiness. God is pretty great. 

So I know that this was a ramble post but I just wanted to tap about how I found my better life. Where is yours? 

UPDATES

Spring semester is almost over! agh! I am so happy about that! I will be taking classes in the summer but its okay because summer is always better! haha! 

I am going on vacation to California in the summer and it is always fun for that! Disney here I come!

I am going to be choreographing a dance with someone next week and I am super excited!

Thats all for now. 

Until Next Time, 

XOXO,

Gossip Girl

AKA..... M'lyn 

To Master or To Not Master.

What a weird title huh?!?

Well I will explain soon what that means.

Lately I have been seeking inspiration everywhere. I have been looking for something that makes me want to try something new. While I still have inspiration from whats going on right now (Dance, School, life) I am just trying to find something that makes me think of something new and different to achieve.

Well I don't know if I have fully found that yet but I have found something new I want to tackle.... Graduate School. God has given me a new path that is SUPER scary. One day it just hit me that I wanted to go further in my education than just a bachelor's degree. I am hoping to get my Masters in Dance Education. Wow. So weird to even think that it might be something I go after. I have never been someone that was good at school but I have really applied myself lately to my school work and my heart is telling me that this is what I am suppose to do. God works in such mysterious ways and even when we can't see how smart or how wonderful we are, he always sees it. He gives us the courage to go after things that we never thought we would want.

These last few years have made me really look towards God for help. I have found my own faith instead of what my parents faith.

I feel like God wants this for me and that he knows its something that I could accomplish. He wants me to accomplish it.

So whats the plan now?
Well I am hoping to do the Disney College Program sometime in-between my bachelors degree (Next spring) and then I hope to graduate Spring of 2018. After that I hope to start right away getting my Masters. It will take about 2 years and while I am working on that I hope to go back to Disney and work my way up through the company. Something that I would love to do with the company is be a choreographer or work or their marketing/advertising section of the company.

WOO GO LIFE! haha! I am loving it right now and I feel so blessed by everything and everyone in it.


UPDATES
So this fall I might be a dance teacher for the studio that I go to! Right now I have just been subbing and I have loved it. I love to dance but being able to help others with their passion is just as satisfying. So I hope that happens because I would be extremely happy.

This semester is almost over which is so fun! haha! I have been struggling tremendously with math class and I am just praying that I will pass. Send me your prayers. haha!

This summer I am going back to California and whats really fun is that the Burroughs/Clines will be there the same time! Random! but yeah! I hope to see my best friend Ellie but I am not too sure of the plan yet.

Something that I am hoping so much for is that there will be another Disney audition this summer! Amy and I are dying to go again and we hope to bring along our friend Andrew! Its fun having other people want to do the same things as me! It makes it so much more special!

So yes! Life is pretty crazy but its super wonderful as well!

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka..... M'lyn

Take A Walk....Look Around.

Hi there,
Whats up?
Its been awhile.
How's life been?

So since I just got a Fitbit, I have started to go on walks more. Around my neighborhood, at a park, around campus.. Everywhere! I have never been one that would want to go on walks because I figured I walk around all day trying to get to the places that I need to be. But lately I have found that going on walks are way more than I thought them to be.

God has created a world for us to discover and explore. Every single spot in this world is worth us looking at and appreciating; even the good old Greeley. Many people believe in order to see beauty in our location, we have to go somewhere glamorous or somewhere that others have never been to. But this world of ours has beauty even in the smallest towns.

When I go on walks around Greeley, I have started to take notice of whats in front of me. I have lived here my whole life and I thought I knew everything there was to know about this place I call home. But theres more.

There's trees in the most perfect places. There are plants that smell and look exquisite. There are buildings that have been crafted in such a fine tip way that they are hard to look away from.

Beyond the looks of the area I am in, there is a sense of hope and stillness. These walks have given me time to think about whats important to me. The things I am afraid to think about and ask questions about. It makes me feel like I am connected to God because I am surrounded by his creation.

I know this all sounds weird. Trust me. Even as I am writing this (About to fall asleep from Exhaustion) I realize that it sounds like I am talking in code or something no one understands. But what I am trying to get at is to look around sometimes at what world you are living in. Its pretty remarkable. When you choose to open your eyes and see that your life is wonderful, you forget all the negative things and only focus on the good. Positivity will flow through you and its a feeling like no other.


UPDATES
Okay so I have been super busy lately with the end of the semester coming up and just the stress that I sometimes overwhelm myself with but I thought I would write a blog about how I am dealing with it and thats what this was suppose to be. haha! Anyways! I have been dancing A LOT lately and I have been falling in love with it more and more. I have found what I love about it again and I feel like myself when I dance. I still am doubtful of myself but I feel at such a good place.

My sister is thinking about coming to the Disney College Program with me which is super exciting! We can be roomies just like when we were womb mates! okay thats a little morbid but you know what I am saying.

I have been assisting at Carissa's studio in Greeley and its getting better every time. The little ones are the cutest and they have been warming up to me! Its so fun to see their passion for dance and to see them grow. They are pretty crazy talented already so I can't wait to see how good they are when they get older!

Anyways.

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

AKA... M'lyn