Okay everyone. This post might be a little serious compared to my other posts.
Tonight I was browsing Netflix, looking for something to watch since I could not decide what kind of mood I was in. I came across a movie called A Girl Like Her. I had heard of this movie but never got to the place of watching it. Tonight I was at that place.
A little back story about this movie is there is a girl named Jessica who for the last 6 months has been bullied by a girl named Avery. The two used to be friends but drifted apart. The beginning scene of the movie is showing Jessica finding pills and taking a handful. The mom finds her later and then the story takes its course. Jessica had one friend and he was someone that would make her have a better day when it felt like she was having the worst day ever. He found a pin that was a hidden camera and he told her to wear it so that they could capture just how mean this girl was to her. The whole movie was filmed as though the kids filmed it and like it was a documentary.
The moment that you are shown the video's about how Avery was to Jessica, it is heartbreaking for everyone watching. I found myself in my kitchen where I was watching it on my iPad, balling about it. Avery would start in the beginning just saying mean things to Jessica and using bad words, and then it went to a violent place where she would be physical and use texting and messaging to bully the girl.
It saddened me so much to see it. I have never been in this situation of being the bully or being bullied, but I know that other people have gone through something like this or even worse. I cried so much by this movie because it really makes even the people who have not been in this situation, think about what they have done or will encounter. It made me think about how I treat people and how I should treat them.
Something that stood out to me was a quote in the movie,"Hurt people hurt others." Avery lived a life that was not perfect even though so many thought it was. She had family that seemed to only know how to fight and she felt alone. Towards the end of the movie they showed her the footage of her bullying Jessica and she showed how hurt she was inside. How alone she felt. Everyone saw in that moment that she is not as perfect or strong as she makes others believe she is.
I related to this in the suicide storyline because of my close friend that committed suicide when we were sophomores in high school. When I saw the scenes of Jessica at her braking point, it made me think of my friend and I felt terrible wondering if he was like her. If he was so broken that he couldn't see the people that were there for him. I have always asked myself why I wasn't enough for him to want to stay alive, but I know that sometimes people just can't keep living the hard life that they live. And it makes me so sad for them.
If there is anything that people can take after this post, its that I am here for you. Even if I don't know you. Even if you don't know me. I am here for you. All it takes is one person to care and I will be that person for you. If you need someone to talk to, I will be there. If you need someone for anything at all, I am there. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. I am the type of person that will be there even when it feels like I am not. I may not always show signs of me being there but I am. God has placed me on a path to care for others, just like he has for so many other people. There are so many people out there to talk to and confide in and even though it is definitely scary to search for them, they are there.
If you are thinking about suicide, make sure to talk to someone that you trust. Find the help that is there for you because there are always other options. There is always hope.
~~~~UPDATES~~~~
Last week I taught dance all week at Carissa's studio and it was such a wonderful experience. I have learned to be comfortable with my teaching abilities and to not doubt what I know. I feel so blessed by everyone there. God is good.
My very good friends Johnny and Karen are getting married and I am so happy for them! There was a little party the day they got engaged and I felt so happy to be invited to it. They are so wonderful and I couldn't feel any more excited for them as I do now. When two wonderful people marry each other, it is a magical thing. :)
I have been getting ready for a garage sale and I am excited for it because I get to use the money for spending money on my Disney trip in June! WOO!
I have been missing my high school friends so much lately. Its random but I have been. I face timed one of my besties Ellie and it made me so happy. Never lose touch with the ones that impacted your life so much.
I have still been choreographing with my dear friend and I love it! Its everything I could ever want to make in a dance! Sharing passions like this with friends makes life so much more wonderful.
That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO, Gossip Girl
AKA........ M'lyn
Saturday, May 21, 2016
Monday, May 16, 2016
Before I knew what blogs were.
Hi everyone! Its been a while. A long time without you my friend...... That was cheesy...
Today I taught two dance classes at The Northern Colorado Dance Fusion in Greeley and it was wonderful. Its always an adventure when you put yourself in situations that you are not use to.
Over the weekend, I was pricing items that will be in a garage sale soon and I came across a box that had a bunch of notebooks in it. Journals that I had written in when I was little. I started to look through them and read what I thought was so important when I was younger. What was the most traumatizing thing of my life. What I noticed about my style of journaling was that I wrote much like how blogs were set up. Instead of gossiping about people or writing about what my sister did to me that day, I wrote about my life. I wrote about the experiences that I thought would be worth remembering. I would write about events that I went to in order to remember them when I read it.. Much like I did when I found it.
It made me start to wonder what other people have that resembles my journals. Did you write a journal about your life? Did you film videos on a recording device as if you were a YouTuber? Did you collect beauty products that turned into a huge passion of yours later?
I know these examples are pretty crazy and random, but the point that I am trying to get to is there are definite moments in our lives that give us a path to what we enjoy later.
I loved to write in my journal as if people were reading it. As if I was speaking to a group of people that wanted nothing more than to be inspired. I was a blogger before I even knew what blogging meant. We all have a path or passion that we want to pursue. These show up at random times and even though it might seem like the things that happen to us when we are younger are not that important, they could actually shape and lead us to our ultimate goal.
Journals, Vlogging, Photography... all the things that we loved to do have way more meaning than what first meets the eye. It is the start of something we never knew would come.
Well I hope this all makes sense and that you took something from it. I am sure you can tell that I don't really plan my posts too much and that is because I want to write as real as possible. If I find an idea that I want to write about I enjoy jumping right in and writing in that moment! Otherwise my thoughts are not what I discovered right in that moment! It would probably interesting to plan my thoughts out but I am so scatterbrained that the blog should reflect me as I am. Haha! See that didn't even really make sense.
Lets all inspire people
~~~~Updates!
Its summer! Woo! I know summer is suppose to be the time where you don't have school but I guess I didn't get that memo.. I am taking 4 summer classes this summer!! AHH! 2 in the first session that ends the end of June and then 2 in the second session that ends at the end of July! I love learning more about my major so these classes are something that I have no problem taking!
Dance is still present in my life! haha! For about 3 weeks now I have been choreographing a dance with one of my besties that is like nothing I have ever choreographed. Its super fun and just the best vibe ever! I love it! Its always crazy to me to think that I have come to where I have with my dancing and just every thing that has came from it. I am so blessed.
I have been teaching more dance classes! Its really fun! It challenges me like no other and It makes me really nervous all the time but I feel like its my path! I am super blessed by my friend Carissa who gives me more opportunities than I deserve!
Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl
AKA....... M'lyn Miller
Today I taught two dance classes at The Northern Colorado Dance Fusion in Greeley and it was wonderful. Its always an adventure when you put yourself in situations that you are not use to.
Over the weekend, I was pricing items that will be in a garage sale soon and I came across a box that had a bunch of notebooks in it. Journals that I had written in when I was little. I started to look through them and read what I thought was so important when I was younger. What was the most traumatizing thing of my life. What I noticed about my style of journaling was that I wrote much like how blogs were set up. Instead of gossiping about people or writing about what my sister did to me that day, I wrote about my life. I wrote about the experiences that I thought would be worth remembering. I would write about events that I went to in order to remember them when I read it.. Much like I did when I found it.
It made me start to wonder what other people have that resembles my journals. Did you write a journal about your life? Did you film videos on a recording device as if you were a YouTuber? Did you collect beauty products that turned into a huge passion of yours later?
I know these examples are pretty crazy and random, but the point that I am trying to get to is there are definite moments in our lives that give us a path to what we enjoy later.
I loved to write in my journal as if people were reading it. As if I was speaking to a group of people that wanted nothing more than to be inspired. I was a blogger before I even knew what blogging meant. We all have a path or passion that we want to pursue. These show up at random times and even though it might seem like the things that happen to us when we are younger are not that important, they could actually shape and lead us to our ultimate goal.
Journals, Vlogging, Photography... all the things that we loved to do have way more meaning than what first meets the eye. It is the start of something we never knew would come.
Well I hope this all makes sense and that you took something from it. I am sure you can tell that I don't really plan my posts too much and that is because I want to write as real as possible. If I find an idea that I want to write about I enjoy jumping right in and writing in that moment! Otherwise my thoughts are not what I discovered right in that moment! It would probably interesting to plan my thoughts out but I am so scatterbrained that the blog should reflect me as I am. Haha! See that didn't even really make sense.
Lets all inspire people
~~~~Updates!
Its summer! Woo! I know summer is suppose to be the time where you don't have school but I guess I didn't get that memo.. I am taking 4 summer classes this summer!! AHH! 2 in the first session that ends the end of June and then 2 in the second session that ends at the end of July! I love learning more about my major so these classes are something that I have no problem taking!
Dance is still present in my life! haha! For about 3 weeks now I have been choreographing a dance with one of my besties that is like nothing I have ever choreographed. Its super fun and just the best vibe ever! I love it! Its always crazy to me to think that I have come to where I have with my dancing and just every thing that has came from it. I am so blessed.
I have been teaching more dance classes! Its really fun! It challenges me like no other and It makes me really nervous all the time but I feel like its my path! I am super blessed by my friend Carissa who gives me more opportunities than I deserve!
Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl
AKA....... M'lyn Miller
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