A Girl Like Her...

Okay everyone. This post might be a little serious compared to my other posts.
Tonight I was browsing Netflix, looking for something to watch since I could not decide what kind of mood I was in. I came across a movie called A Girl Like Her. I had heard of this movie but never got to the place of watching it. Tonight I was at that place.

A little back story about this movie is there is a girl named Jessica who for the last 6 months has been bullied by a girl named Avery. The two used to be friends but drifted apart. The beginning scene of the movie is showing Jessica finding pills and taking a handful. The mom finds her later and then the story takes its course. Jessica had one friend and he was someone that would make her have a better day when it felt like she was having the worst day ever. He found a pin that was a hidden camera and he told her to wear it so that they could capture just how mean this girl was to her. The whole movie was filmed as though the kids filmed it and like it was a documentary.

The moment that you are shown the video's about how Avery was to Jessica, it is heartbreaking for everyone watching. I found myself in my kitchen where I was watching it on my iPad, balling about it. Avery would start in the beginning just saying mean things to Jessica and using bad words, and then it went to a violent place where she would be physical and use texting and messaging to bully the girl.

It saddened me so much to see it. I have never been in this situation of being the bully or being bullied, but I know that other people have gone through something like this or even worse. I cried so much by this movie because it really makes even the people who have not been in this situation, think about what they have done or will encounter. It made me think about how I treat people and how I should treat them.

Something that stood out to me was a quote in the movie,"Hurt people hurt others." Avery lived a life that was not perfect even though so many thought it was. She had family that seemed to only know how to fight and she felt alone. Towards the end of the movie they showed her the footage of her bullying Jessica and she showed how hurt she was inside. How alone she felt. Everyone saw in that moment that she is not as perfect or strong as she makes others believe she is.

I related to this in the suicide storyline because of my close friend that committed suicide when we were sophomores in high school. When I saw the scenes of Jessica at her braking point, it made me think of my friend and I felt terrible wondering if he was like her. If he was so broken that he couldn't see the people that were there for him. I have always asked myself why I wasn't enough for him to want to stay alive, but I know that sometimes people just can't keep living the hard life that they live. And it makes me so sad for them.

If there is anything that people can take after this post, its that I am here for you. Even if I don't know you. Even if you don't know me. I am here for you. All it takes is one person to care and I will be that person for you. If you need someone to talk to, I will be there. If you need someone for anything at all, I am there. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. I am the type of person that will be there even when it feels like I am not. I may not always show signs of me being there but I am. God has placed me on a path to care for others, just like he has for so many other people. There are so many people out there to talk to and confide in and even though it is definitely scary to search for them, they are there.

If you are thinking about suicide, make sure to talk to someone that you trust. Find the help that is there for you because there are always other options. There is always hope.


~~~~UPDATES~~~~
Last week I taught dance all week at Carissa's studio and it was such a wonderful experience. I have learned to be comfortable with my teaching abilities and to not doubt what I know. I feel so blessed by everyone there. God is good.

My very good friends Johnny and Karen are getting married and I am so happy for them! There was a little party the day they got engaged and I felt so happy to be invited to it. They are so wonderful and I couldn't feel any more excited for them as I do now. When two wonderful people marry each other, it is a magical thing. :)

I have been getting ready for a garage sale and I am excited for it because I get to use the money for spending money on my Disney trip in June! WOO!

I have been missing my high school friends so much lately. Its random but I have been. I face timed one of my besties Ellie and it made me so happy. Never lose touch with the ones that impacted your life so much.

I have still been choreographing with my dear friend and I love it! Its everything I could ever want to make in a dance! Sharing passions like this with friends makes life so much more wonderful.

That's all for now,
Until Next Time,
XOXO,  Gossip Girl

AKA........ M'lyn