The Liebster Award!

Hi everyone!
So I was nominated by Talkative Girl (Time To Stop Talking) and I can definitely say that I had no idea what it was! haha! But I knew that I was tremendously honored to just have someone read and love my blog! So I am going to answer the questions and then nominate some people at the end! Lets get started shall we!!??

The Questions

What's your favorite song?

Well I will be honest and say that I am very bad at knowing what music is good and what is bad. I am basically behind with whats popular. BUT! I do a song that I am totally loving right now and that is Work From Home by Fifth Harmony. They just released their video for it and I loved it so much! It has fun dance beats and just really great vocals and I am hoping that I can make a dance to it! Check it out if you haven't already!!

Do you have any pets?

I have a chihuahua Jack russel dog and her name is Bella. She loves to think that she is the biggest dog ever and that she can protect everyone but she is just a scared little dog. haha! My sister has a bearded dragon but that is mainly her pet. I am definitely more of a people person! 

Have you ever been on Holiday? If so, where?

I have went to California to go to Disneyland with the family but its been a while since we have all went! I recently went so that I could audition for Disney but it was just me and my bestie that went. I want to go to Paris so bad but that will be something that will take quite a while! 

How long have you been blogging for?

I have had multiple blogs going, but this one (Different perspective) has been one that I am being more focused on. I feel like I have a really good direction with it so I want to just keep inspiring others while I write about what I am going through! Its all good! I love blogging a lot and I feel like I can really get through things that I would normally not be able to get through on my own. I am just writing because it is fun and I love it! I have a youtube channel but I have been holding that off for a bit because I want to make sure I am ready to take it on and to do it well!

What is your favorite film?

Oh gosh! Movies are my thing and I love so many of them! I would say as of right now my favorite movie is Something Borrowed. It has cute romance and just a fun feeling to it! I love it a lot and I have watched it over and over again! Check it out! 

What is your dream job?

I want to dance at Disneyland one day. I love the company and what it stands for and I just want to help make little kids smile and have the best vacation ever! I honestly wouldn't even mind working retail there. I just want to be involved with the company so bad!

Who is your favorite singer?

Well I gotta go with either my bae Justin Bieber or my other bae Charlie Puth. They are both so talented and they released their new albums that are pure genius! I am obsessed with both of them! 

Favorite food?

I love potatoes. haha! Any restaurant that I go to I have to have some kind of potatoes. I also love chic Fil La in general. So yeah! :) 

Biggest Fear?

SPIDERS....... Need I say more. 

Greatest Strength/Weakness?

I would say my greatest strength is that I am caring and nice to everyone. I am always wanting to meet new people and wanting to talk to them. I care a lot about people and I just want to do anything to make them happy! My weakness is that sometimes I get to caught up in things and don't think about what I say or do. It can make a lot of problems arise.... OOPS. haha! :) 

What age would you have kids? How many?

Wow! This is a hard one especially seeing as I have never even dated anyone. I would like to say 27 I would be ready for that and that I would like to have 3 or 4. An even number would be good because then hopefully one would not be left out. 

Rules:

• This award exists only on the internet, and is given to bloggers by other bloggers.
• It has German origins – the word “liebster” has several definitions: dearest, sweetest, kindest, nicest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, welcome, sweetheart and boyfriend (really?)
• It follows similar principles as a chain letter, in the sense that it should be passed forward to a certain number of people.
• It can be misconstrued, depending upon your personal views, as either something wonderful (who doesn't like awards?) or as an annoyance (a chain letter that involves work).
• The choice lies within each of us to ACCEPT it, and continue PAYING IT FORWARD or to refuse to accept it, thereby STOPPING or INTERRUPTING the chain. However, if you stop the chain, you are only hurting yourself (keep reading for benefits you will have)!
• Personal views play an important part in our choice to participate. Some people have refused to accept it and have made attempts to “break the chain”. There have been many people who have been nominated, yet refused to accept it, and now their blogs have been abandoned.
• Variations have been made over time to the “rules”.
• Marketing plays a role in accepting this award, as other bloggers are promoted. (This is not a bad thing, however, since people should help others!)
• Other awards are a part of thiis These include “One Lovely Blog Award”, the “Sunshine Blog Award” and the “Versatile Writer Award”.

I think this award is so cool and just really fun to get other blogs noticed! WOOO! 

I nominate: 

NightWalker Short Romantic Love Stories Blog

Creatively Bored

Ali-Lin Skim + Sink

Sarah A Glimpse of Blue

Fisheemich Hey Mich (The Fish Swims)

For the People I nominated:

What is one place you want to visit?

Do you have any siblings?

What can you not live without?

Who has been the most impactful in your life?

How long have you been blogging?

What is your favorite book?

Have you been to Disneyland/Disney World?

What are your goals for the future?

What is your favorite quote you have ever heard?

What is something you wish you were better at?

Favorite type of clothing?

Favorite place you have visited?

One word that describes your blog?

Thats all for now!

Until Next Time, 

XOXO,

Gossip Girl

AKA.... M'lyn

Feeling inadequate.

It's easy to feel like we don't belong. Like people don't care about us. But the thing is... That's not true at all. You are loved more than you are shown.

It's easy to feel like we're never good enough. Like our dreams won't come true. Like we are not as good at that (fill in the blank). But that's not true either. Sure there will be someone that is better, but you need to be better than your past self, not better than that person next to you.

I am a big believer on making sure people love themselves. That people feel like they are enough. I use to be that person that would doubt my abilities. I would feel like I should just give up on that dream because I will never get to that level. And while that feeling still shows up, I feel so much better about myself. I feel accomplished and I feel like I truly belong.

The only thing that is keeping you from feeling like you are worth it is yourself. I want people to feel like they are good. That they are loved. That they can be that person they have always wanted to be. If you ever meet me, I can promise you that I will make it my mission to become your friend. Because even before I meet you I will care about you. Because we are all brothers and sisters in Christ. And because I just care. Plain and simple.

Updates:
Day of dance is next Saturday! Ahh! It's definitely I weird feeling performing with a different group but I am so excited about it. I would be so much more nervous if it wasn't for everyone being so welcoming and loving to me. It's going to be great.

I released two videos yesterday for Carissa's studio and it was such a vulnerable feeling for me. I am super proud of what I did for them but there is always that feeling of missing something. But Carissa is such a wonderful person and supporter that I feel really great about it. I feel like I can do this and do it well.

Today was more practice for our upcoming project! It's definitely something that is not secret but I don't want to reveal things about it until it gets closer. I feel super blessed by it and I just feel loved by the group of us. We have been together doing what we love for a while and so this has just felt so natural. I am super excited and I will probably film it on the day. So stay tuned!!!

That's all for now!

You are great. Find your happiness and remember you are loved more than you know.

Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

AKA..... M'lyn

The Power of Happiness.

There are many things in life that we take for granted. We think that things will just come easy to us or be there when we really need it.

Happiness will not just appear in your life. You can't seek to find it in people or force it from them.

Happiness comes from within. It comes from the people that are there for you even in your darkest moments. The people that will fight for you when you don't have any fight left in yourself.

Happiness comes from how you live out your passions. When you love something, never give it up. Even when there are others trying to bring you down or make you feel like you can't go far with that passion... Keep doing it.

Happiness comes from the way you live your life. In order to be happy, you have to see the world in a positive way. You have to be excited for whats next and what your future will bring.

I, like many other people in this world, have had their off moments. Their moments where they don't feel happy or excited about what the day brings. When I was in high school, I went on a field trip for my spanish class. I had been talking to one of my best friends the day before about how we would sit on the bus together and how we would eat lunch together that day. Well when going on the bus, I couldnt find him. He wasn't there. I didn't think much of it, just that he was probably not feeling well. I went on to the field trip and as the day went on, I was pulled out of a seminar and sat down in the lobby of the event. There was a group of us, all that I knew very well. The next few minutes were moments that I still look back today and get sad at. They told us that my best friend took his life last night. Utter disbelief turned into tears that were uncontrollable. Why would this happen? What did I do wrong? Why didn't I see the signs? We left the field trip early and went home. I sat in my room the rest of the day unable to know what to feel or do next. Even to this day, I feel like I see him in people or watch movies that bring back memories and I get back to that crying feeling all over again. I have made peace with it, but I will never be okay with it. Something that I found through this event is that I did not blame God for what happened. It would be so easy but I was just thankful that my friend was in my life even for just a bit.

God has put me through so many things I never thought I would go through. But I have never felt more thankful for him. He has shown me so many different ways on how to live life to the fullest. He has given be opportunities that I thought would never go on my path.

Hard times and stressful moments will always come, but what God does is shows you the light through the darkness. I have never felt more happy in my life than I do right now. I still get stressed with things like school and grown up decisions I have to make, but I feel so thankful that God has given me the life he has today.

Find your light through the darkness and even when something happens that you can't even imagine happening, move on to find you happiness.

This is super random but I thought I had to post this because I have been watching Grey's Anatomy. Meredith just went through something really traumatic and she is struggling to find her happiness. I thought about my moment where I didn't know what would happen next or if I would find that happiness again. But I did because of God and because of the friends and family I have around me.

Find your happiness because it is super powerful.

UPDATES
Day of Dance is next week and I am so excited! I am performing with a new group this time and it is super scary but so fun and exciting. I think I would be way too nervous and scared if I didn't have the wonderful group of people that are a new addition to my dance family that I have in the group. They make me want to be better.

We have our weekly project meetings and I love it. Any excuse to see my original dance family I am all for it.


Thats all for now!
Until next time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA..... M'lyn

What Would You Do?

So there is this show where they hire actors and set up intense scenes at different locations around the world to see how people react. 

They had one with a high schooler who was ditching and there was a guy that was creepy suggesting that they leave and go to his house so she can see his recording studio. People around would react by telling the girl to not go with him. There was a dad that stood up for the girl and said he is not letting him leave with her. 

There was one where a girl that has a stutter was trying to order some ice cream and she kept getting bullied because she couldn't talk normal. One person that was there witnessing this, stood up to the bullies and told them to stop and she was in tears because of it all.

There was one where a mom was a foster parent for a little kid and she would keep telling the kid that he is just her way of getting her money and the her biological daughter is her real kid. People would tell the woman that a child is important even if they are not biologically hers. 

This show makes me cry, makes me mad and makes me question just what I would do if there was something happening that I would not be okay with. I watched these different episodes and I would cry on a lot of them because its crazy how these situations seem so crazy, but they do actually happen in real life. We don't feel like its a problem until we see it for ourselves. I would like to say that I would confront the people when there was something that I didn't like, but who knows. I love this show though because it makes me learn how to be a better person and how to stand up for what I believe in. Often times we are all to quiet and we end up being miserable. But we as people are here to help when someone needs it. 

So what would you do if you overheard some high school girls telling another to take diet pills because she was 'fat'? 

What would you do if you saw a husband abusing his wife verbally and see bruises of him being physically abusive?

What would you do if you saw a girl almost get kidnapped by someone? 

This post is random but I just wanted to tell you it because I think you should watch it! 

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So today was a very wonderful day because I got to do something that I have been on a break from for a long time. I got to be with people that make me smile and make me the most happy. God works in mysterious ways and I have a feeling that he put this opportunity in my life because he knew I would need people who inspire me and make me confident. He knew that this would make my life better when there has been obstacles pulling me down.

Speaking of God's blessings, its almost time for me to film my first video for the lovely Carissa at my dance studio I go to. I am so excited and anxious to see what happens! The group of people that are there at the studio are unlike any other. I have always wanted to take dance classes but never knew where to go. God put this studio and these people on my path because he knew that they would lift me up out of any problems I face. I can't even believe the opportunities and wonderful things that have come my way because of the group. They are wonderful.

I have been feeling very close to God recently and it has made me really happy. It feels good to be at a solid place with him and to feel happy. God makes me happy and I am so glad that I have him there.

Thats all folks,

Until Next Time,

XOXO, 

Gossip Girl

AKA... M'lyn 

What I Have Learned So Far From Being More Active

WOW! That was a long title!
Recently I have started to workout more and I have been eating better.. why? Because I am becoming a new me. There have been more times than I can count on my fingers of when I have tried to workout and keep it going. But each and every time I have failed and given up because it became too time consuming or I didn't believe in myself.

Body image is something that is everywhere, in every generation, and its all consuming. We all have this image of what we think is perfect or what we need to look like to be happy. We push ourselves past our breaking point and get stuck in a negative bubble that drags us down and sometimes drags people we care about down with us.

When I was around 7, I was very little and short. I was carefree and I wasn't introduced yet to how sometimes we are our own worse enemy. When I was 16, I was very aware about how I looked. How I wasn't like the other girls that were breathtakingly beautiful. How I wasn't that skinny 7 year old anymore. I was still short though... So theres that! haha! I started to cover up every inch of me with sweaters and long pants... anything to hide how I really looked. I was ashamed of how I looked and I was only 16. The age where I should be having fun and making memories that I can look back on and smile at. But what I can remember now the most is that dark place in my mind where I picked myself apart but managed to hide it with my never ending smile. When I was 19, (so, recently haha!) I was happy with where my life was going and who was in it, but I still was in that dark place where I never saw myself of being good enough because my looks were not good enough. Now as my 20 year old self, I am taking a stand against my demons. I have started to slowly but surely get rid of sugars like candy and soda, and I started to eat cleaner rather than eating processed foods that are pre made. I have started to do Insanity which is just as it sounds... INSANE! This whole process has been hard and it really messes with me at times, but I have never felt more alive and more proud of myself. Of course there are days like today (Wednesdays are Zombie day for me...) where there is no sign of any energy and I feel like giving up. But I remember how I felt at 16 and it pushes me. I have made a lot of changes in my life because it was dragging me deeper and deeper. Internal changes from within and changes with how my life was going. People have left my life and people have stayed and I always find a way to look at the positive. No one will be there forever. Unless they are like my high school gal pals that are absolutely amazing and will probably be my bridesmaids.... Yes I just said gal pals.

Through working out, I have found how to push when I thought I didn't have it in me. I have found how to see myself as beautiful but in progress of something better than how I look.... Happiness..
I am just feeling super good!!

UPDATES:
Dance is flowing through my life like no other.. I have made 5 dances so far and I have been super proud of where I have grown from my technique classes. When I first started at UNC, I was scared of how good everyone was and how I couldn't amount to the same level as they were. But since joining Dance Fusion, finding friends within the dance program and keeping my Elluminate group close, I have found confidence to keep going. Of course I am still insecure at times, but the support system I have amazes me all the time.

Speaking of Dance, the project is almost finished and ready! I have put myself in such a vulnerable state for this project and so has everyone else that is in it with me. We have created something super special and it feels great to feel proud about what it is. God definitely is looking out for me. I feel blessed for all the opportunities that he has put on my path!

Well! Thanks for reading my posts! Find your way to happiness and stick with it!

Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

AKA.. M'lyn

Not Bitter But Better.

Here's the thing about me. I am not perfect. I am not always the sweetest person. I am not always having the best day. I am not a dramatic person.

I am human.

Things have happened in my life that have made me ask why.

Why did one of my best friends have to leave this world too soon? Why does my grandma have to live in constant pain? Why do I put myself in unrealistic expectations?

I am sure we all have a list of things that we want to know why they happen.

This past year, I have had to endure some situations where I couldn't control the outcome. I was fulfilling my "Not the sweetest person" characteristic of myself. and I was fulfilling the feeling of trying desperately to be perfect.

The end result was not in my favor at all. It sucks for sure to have to go through situations where I have no control. Situations where a negative power was trying to get me to be knocked down and to give up. But I didn't. My mom always tells me that she is proud of how strong I am, and that is because through every situation in my life where things have not gone my way, I have trusted God and moved on instead of dwelling on the could haves. I have always been someone that chooses to not be bitter but to be better because of it. We all make mistakes, and we all put ourselves in situations that seem embarrassing, but we can't let that define us... We need to break through and be stronger, happier and ultimately learn from the experience.

If you are someone that has felt like they couldn't control what was happening. Like no matter what, it would not end well for you. I just want you to know that it gets better. God has a plan for you even though it seems like you had to go through some rocks and needles to get there. Mistakes will 100% be made, but what God helps you to see is how you can grow and learn from it. To be the better person and admit that you could have done something else.

A verse that has been popping up over and over again is:

Be Joyful in Hope,

Patient in Affliction,

Faithful in Prayer. 

--Romans 12:12

If you have had a falling out with a friend: Know that its okay. It sucks that you both are not in each others lives any more, but sometimes its for the best. Negativity when coming from both sides is not a good thing to mix. Sometimes friendships that seem like they are the best thing in the beginning, can easily turn into something that becomes unhealthy. You will find that you will become much happier in the end when you choose happiness over trying to make things work when they just won't. Also, just because you are both not feeling the best towards each other right now, doesn't mean you won't ever be friends again. God will not put someone in your life that he didn't think would be good for you. If God is telling your heart to find that friendship again than do it. This has happened many times in my life and God has never failed to show me what is best for me. Like I said before, it may seem like a bad thing and like it was the worst thing ever, but sometimes its needed to make you both become better versions of yourself.

If you are someone that is coming out of a relationship: Now obviously I have never dated anyone before, but I have had many friends that have told me their experiences. If it wasn't right, it wasn't right. Forcing something to work that is refusing to work, will only make you exhausted and in more pain than if you were to just move on. Being bitter about that boy/girl that you loved and now its over, will only make you more sad and stuck in a negative place. There are literally plenty of fish in the sea. Don't focus on one person just because you thought they were the one. Focus on loving yourself, because as Lace said on this season of The Bachelor, "How will someone love me, if I don't even love myself?" (thats not an exact quote but its basically the sum of what she was saying). Choose yourself before choosing to love someone that won't love you back.

If you are someone that is struggling with the awful school stress: I am not going to lie. College is a lot tougher than you think. Its definitely better than high school but it is not an easy ride. I personally learned a lot my freshman year. My grades can prove that to you right away.... OOPS. College or even high school brings on more stress than we feel we can bear. Don't be hard on yourself. You are doing the best that you can. And if I have any advice for you its to use your resources! Get help from your teachers or tutors. Its okay if you can't do it on your own.

If you are someone that is struggling with insecurities: Gosh this one is hard. I could easily say forget them, but thats easier said than done. These insecurities that are consuming you will go away eventually. There are some people that let their insecurities take over their whole life and end up loosing the things/people they love because of it. Don't let that happen. I almost let my insecurities make me loose my friends in high school because instead of me just using my voice and asking if we were okay, I let the insecurities be my voice and it was not too friendly. I didn't say much to people, it was more of talking to myself and starting rumors inside my head like, "They don't like you" "You are not as good as (Fill in the blank)" "You should try to not be yourself so that people will like you". NO! This is Satan using your insecurities to turn you into a mess. You know who you are and you should not let these thoughts that are put in your head change who you are.

These are just a few examples of different types of people....

Being bitter about situations and being negative will not help. Being better than you were before will make such a big change in not only you but the people involved and around you. Learn and grow and let positivity take over instead of negativity.

I am a dreamer. I am creative. I am not perfect but I am wonderfully made by God. I am passionate. I am kind. I am daring. I am adventurous. I am outgoing. I am a best friend. I am a believer of God. I am generous.

This list can go on and on and ultimately beats the list from the beginning. I quite like this list more. Make some lists of your own saying who you are. Because who you are is beautiful.


UPDATES: My last blog post pretty much says my updates for now but something that is new is

THE BRONCOS WON THE SUPER BOWL!!! AHHHH! Of course unless you were living under a rock, you already know this but I figured I should celebrate this with you guys!!
WOOO Throw the confetti! Cheers! Cry!

Okay I will stop.

Thats all for now,
Until next time,
XOXO, Gossip Girl

Aka... M'lyn.

The Heartbreakers by: Ali Novak

So I found this book randomly at a Target. When I read the back of it, and to be completely honest, I thought it sounded like the most cheesiest book ever. A girl talks badly about a famous band only to realize that one of the members is right there hearing everything she is saying. Then feelings start to happen and the girl is conflicted about it because it just so happens that her sister is dying of cancer. Now when you hear that storyline doesn't it sound like its going to be cheesy or at least close to it? 

I couldn't be more wrong. I was so intrigued to figure out what this book was about so I requested it from the library and read it in 2 days! This book is full of excitement and rawness that makes you not want to put it down. Of course there are the parts in the book where you start to think that in real life that probably wouldn't happen, but the book is like a realm for us to experience something we only thought would happen in our dreams. Falling in love with someone that we would normally never meet. 

Ali Novak is a writer that has some stories originally started on Wattpad.. a place where people can find books written by people just like ourselves. She has a book called, "My Life With The Walter Boys." Which I will be writing a post about later because it is extremely good! 

Stella is someone who wants to be there for the people that matter most in her life. She is a triplet to her brother named Drew and her sister whose name is Cara. Stella loves photography and she has a gift for capturing the moments that other people would overlook. Drew and Stella set out on a journey to get the perfect gift for Cara... Unfortunately that means that Stella has to wait in line for a band that she absolutely hates. Before they arrive to the location they go to a Starbucks. Stella meets a boy there and chats with him a bit before snapping a signature pic of him. Drew and Stella head to the signing where she waits... and waits... and waits. They end up not being able to get the things they wanted there and have to return to the hotel. Stella goes in the elevator and meets none other than the boy she met at Starbucks and the band that she has heard all about it. 

Throughout the story you see the different relationships change and you find out more about each of the characters. I didn't want to go too much into the plot but I definitely think if you like the simple romance type of stories that this one is for you. 

We all have a bit of Stella in us. We want to make the people we love happy and proud of us that sometimes we forget to make ourselves happy and proud. Dreams are what keeps us going and Stella for a long time, pushes away those dreams because she thinks her family needs her more. The people we love are there for us just like we are there for them. We may believe that whats best is to help the people around us, which is good, but sometimes we need to figure out what we want and go after it.

I hope you guys end up wanting to read this book and definitely go check out Wattpad if you want to find some unique stories that you can't find at the stores!

UPDATES: Today was a super fun day! I started it out bright and early dancing with some special people and we started our latest project which I am so excited for. This time I tried to not be so hard on myself because I use to not share my ideas because of the fear that they are stupid but I have let people in to a side that I usually only have in my room! My choreography side.. WOO! haha! So yeah that has been super fun! 

I got a new Dresser! Since putting up mirrors and a ballet barre, I have wanted to get a smaller dresser because I needed more room to dance in and I finally got one! It's been pretty exciting to be able to get up and dance in front of a mirror whenever I want! 

Thats all for now! 

Until Next Time,

XOXO, 

Gossip Girl

Aka... M'lyn 

Going Left when you want to go Right.

Well I would like to thank the great Charlie Puth for inspiring this blog post! I have been listening to his new album every chance I get and it makes my heart so happy.

He has a song that is called, "Left Right Left" and when I heard it for the first time, it really made me think about life and how sometimes the direction God puts us in we don't always want to follow. There are so many happy things that happen in life and we are so thankful for them.. but there are times where God puts us in situations that we wish we wouldn't have to go through. Sadness starts to happen and anger creeps in. Confusion takes over and we are left with too many emotions to handle, so it all just explodes.

We all believe that we know what is best for us and what is going to make us the most happy, but we don't.. at least not right away. Happiness is different for everyone. We all have things that makes us happy and even people that make us happy, but it is never the same for the person that is next to us.

So with all of that dramatic intro, I thought it was interesting because it brought up the idea of taking risks. There is always an easy route. A route that seems more comfortable and like it won't hurt us, but sometimes what we truly need is to go through the obstacles in order to grow into a better person than we were before. We have to make changes in our lives and move things around even though its easier to just keep things where they are. We have to talk to that person that we would not normally talk to because it makes us challenge ourselves and become more open, rather than sitting back and deciding to just stay where we are at.

Risks can have a good light at the end of the tunnel, but it can also be bad. Thats the thing about risks.. We never know what is going to happen when we take them, but we know that if we don't we will regret it more than ever.

I have tried to apply this to my life recently. I have auditioned for more shows and dance things. Things that use to scare me right out of my socks, but I can honestly say no matter what if I have gotten in the show/event or not, I felt 10 times more better about myself because I took a chance which I would never usually do. I have started to ask more for what I want instead of just waiting for it to happen. Here's the thing. If you want something, but you just sit back and hope it comes eventually, you will be waiting for a long time. With Elluminate, I have become more aware of what I want in life and in the group itself and I have tried to get better at not sitting back and downgrading myself because thats safer than looking bad. I can dance. I may not be the most wonderful and the best at technique but I believe that I am good and that I can get to what I have always wanted. I can work towards dancing for disney or whatever I want, because I believe in myself and thats something I would never have been able to get to if I didn't take the risks that I have so far. I have dug deep inside myself to see whats been good for me and what hasn't and even though its hard to let go of some of my dreams and the things i thought were good, I have found more positivity and happiness within myself.

Take risks. It can be the best thing that you will ever do.

Even though left looks scary and like it will hurt you, go left instead of right.

Bad things will happen. There is no way of getting away from that but there will always be something good thats on its way.

Thanks for listening to another random post.

UPDATES:
Things are happening!! I had a meeting for something special coming up and I am so excited about it. Sometimes opportunities pop up when we least expect them and this one is something that is not only going to get me dancing again, but inspire others while I dance along people that have made me the person I am today. Gosh it will be good.

The dance show I was going to be in got canceled and even though its sad, I just feel super blessed to even been a part of it for a short while. Like I said before, I would never audition usually for anything because I didn't feel like I would be good enough, and so even though the show is not happening, it has been a risk that has made given me a new light to view myself in. When I went to the audition, I was being doubtful of myself and not being positive because I truly believed I would never get in, but then someone picked me out of many others that auditioned. Someone saw something in me that I was refusing to look for. The show is a symbol that I can't be hard on myself because I am more than I let myself be. Thank you Katelyn for inspiring me and taking a chance on me. We are still going to see each other at dance and I am just super blessed that you have came into my life.

I switched my major from Business to Communication and I still am unclear about whats going to happen but I am pretty excited about it. God has been putting me through so many different twists and turns but I am ready for whatever he brings. God is good.

Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka... M'lyn Miller