What Life Has Taught Me

Hi there everyone!

So here I am, Sunday night, watching Bates Motel on Netflix and I get the sudden urge to blog about my life. Its definitely weird seeing as Bates Motel is about a mentally psychotic boy named Norman Bates that just so happens to black out sometimes and kill people... you know... the usual. Also, side note... I am on season 3 right now and that is the last one available on Netflix and I am just wondering how I am going to survive the wait for season 4??? Dylemma alone makes me want to see it as soon as possible... (Watch the show to get that reference, or you know look it up on youtube haha!) If you want me to make another blog post about my love for Bates Motel I definitely will because I have so much to say and feel.

ANYWAYS.. M'lyn stay on topic gosh....
Sorry. So! It is August right now and I have already begun some new changes in my life.
1) I am now officially a dance teacher. AHHH! The dream is becoming real! I have just 1 student as of last week and she is quite possibly the cutest little girl I have ever seen. She inspires me already and I just love her!!!

2) I am now working 2 jobs! AHH STRESS! haha! JK its not that bad. I work at UNC still at the graduate school for half the day until 12:30 and then I go later in the day and work as the receptionist for the studio! Its completely new for me but its fun! I clean a lot which surprisingly I love! haha! (Don't tell my parents I said that...)

3) I have to put my big girl pants on. What does this mean exactly? Well, soon I will be applying for the Disney College Program and if I get accepted I will be leaving my house and college and go to Florida or California for 4-7 months. Yeah. I am a little stressed. With that I have also been dancing with some of my best friends and we have a big project coming up that I super duper want to be a part of in the spring. Yes I just said super duper... #TrendSetterOverHere. The only problem with all this is that I can only do one or the other (So Far). Things always change but I am definitely worried that I will only be able to one of them and have to let go of the other. Basically I have been praying a lot and just letting God take over for this one because it will make me go mad if I don't.

4) Like the #3 states, I have a new project that I am involved in. Its obviously about dance and I have been choreographing with my dear friend and we have made one of my all time favorite dances. It feels so good to be able to feed off of someone else's creativity and just bounce ideas to get the best result. We have been slaying it (as the cool kids say). Gosh I felt old just saying that and I am only 20.

So with all these changes and new things that are happening, I have been taking a step back and remembering the lessons and obstacles that I have faced in my life.

Life lesson #1: Things can change in a blink of an eye

So I bet you think you know where your life is going to be in 10 years. First of all you go Glen Coco because thats pretty impressive. Okay so I don't know what you have gone through but for me, just when I think I know where my life is going to go it completely changes. When I was younger I said I was going to be a professional golf cart driver and that has definitely changed. I always think I know where I want to go with my life or what path it is on, but only God knows and I have found that I am completely okay with that. You may have friends that seem like they are the best friends ever but that can completely change and you may lose them.... Now I still have my best friends from high school and so fortunately for me it hasn't been a problem! Love you girlies!
But really. Change will happen and the best thing to do is invite it.

Life Lesson #2: Be prepared to feel like you have completely lost yourself as some point.

This sounds so depressing but it is not. Sure not everyone goes through this but I certainly have. I think whenever you enter college as a freshman, you are on the joy ride of having to figure out what you want and who you are. I am a junior in college now and I am barely finished figuring out who I am. I didn't realize at the time but when I was in high school, I was someone that I didn't want to be. I worried so much about being seen as cool and being invited to literally everything that I let other important things slip through my fingers. Now in college, I look back and just cringe at that person. Its not important to be invited to everything. Its not important to be cool. I mean yes, we all want to be like Glen Coco and get 4 candy canes but sometimes that doesn't happen. #KillingItWithTheMeanGirlsReferences.
I wish I would have seen how deep I was when I lost myself but it worked out in the long run because I was able to find myself through it and find what I didn't want to be like anymore.

Life Lesson #3: Learn to put yourself sometimes before others

I am someone that loves people. I want to makes sure that I help others in any way that I can and with that I have let a lot of people walk over me. I have said yes to things that I didn't want to do and I have just done what everyone thought I should do. But I have changed tremendously with this. I learned to think about what is best for me and what my limitations are. Not everyone means to hurt you but sometimes it happens. Sometimes you have to make changes that make the people you had as friends fall behind instead of stick with you, but it all works out in the end. Sacrifices are needed even though it feels so bad at the time.

Life Lesson #4: Adventure is out there.

This is something that everyone realizes as some point. For me, it is that there is so much more outside of Greeley. Now obviously I knew that but I didn't realize how much there really was. How much I could be a part of. How big the world is for me to dream. When I went to my first Disney audition, I may not of walked away with a part, but I walked away with the greatest feeling ever. I got to feel what it felt like to actually go after what I wanted. I got to be adventurous.

Okay. I think I am done for now. There are a lot more life lessons that I could talk about but these are the ones that my fingers decided to type. Let me know some of your life lessons and how you feel about them!

GUYS! I am on the 3rd to last episode now of Bates Motel.. Send help! I might just crawl into a ball and cry because I don't know what to do... Its like when I watched all of Greys Anatomy. 12 seasons baby and it is basically my best friend.

Wow. I need to get out more.

Thats all for now!
Until Next Time,
XOXO,
Gossip Girl

Aka.... M'lyn